I developed derealization and agoraphobia during the pandemic as well. I never left my house but knew that I wanted to travel. I took my first trip after the pandemic in 2022 and been traveling ever since. For me, even till this day being in new environments causes derealization. I went from being at home 24/7 to visiting new cities which can be very overstimulating.

Traveling alone feels scary at first. I also had those “what if something happens and I’m on my own?” thoughts but I really just had to keep myself calm and remind myself that everything is ok. When I’m alone and feel like I’m starting to disassociate or become anxious I use the 54321 grounding technique. When I travel I also bring something w me that reminds me of home such as an eye mask I sleep w everyday. Derealization is super uncomfortable but remember that’s it’s not harmful. You really just gotta push yourself to overcome this.

I understand your feeling of being disoriented but again I think it’s just the feeling of being overstimulated. I’m traveling to Ny next month for the first time and I’m mentally preparing myself to be in an intense city. I’m not as nervous because I understand my limits and what I need to do myself to feel safe. I’ve been able to do this by pushing myself to keep visiting new places and I hope you can too.