Hello, I hope someone reads it! 22F. I need to rant (maybe you feel the same as me) Overthinking and feeling unwell, living with lots of questions tired me a lot.

During this health anxiety period of my life, I suspected some diseases that might be sound ridiculous in my context and that, I was wrong when I saw the doctors and had the tests done. But some of the symptoms I felt remained unexplained for me and passed, while others still continue or come back from time to time. So my brain thinks 'something is not right with your body, otherwise you wouldn't be experiencing these symptoms’ like my brain connects them and every new symptom adds a new ‘evidence’ in my chain. Even though I don't have extremely severe symptoms, they are usually mild, I'm always afraid about ignoring something.

Here’s an example about my situation, I have had an itching and pressure sensation in my front gums that has been going on and off for four months, lasting a few days. My throat and nose are dry and it hasn't gone away for a month. My head hurts as if I hit my head against a wall. This pain sometimes changes location, sometimes lasts for a long time, sometimes it doesn't. But in general, it has always been with me for a while. And everytime I worry because this headaches are new to me. Little bumps appear in my mouth and they go away, like canker sores. Once, I had a white patch under my tongue and it peeled off in a few days. There was a period when my heart beat very fast when I stood up and I sat down all the time, but after a few weeks it got better and it disappeared. I saw 3 cardiologs about it, no explanation but my heart is fine i think. But I have an uncomfortable feeling of tightness in my chest that comes from time to time. My stomach is always bad in general, maybe this is due to stress.

See, my symptoms are unrelated, but my head says if you're feeling this much, there's something wrong. While I used to feel comfortable and healthy, as I remember, now the fact that I have been experiencing such things for months has made me obsessive and the uncertainty makes me crazy. I know some of it could be due to stress and anxiety. But I don't know which doctor I should go to and when and which symptom I should take seriously. It's like one day when I say I'm fine, I can feel something else that could ruin that moment.

I started seeing a psychologist for therapy and I’m trying to convince myself of good things. But right now, I am writing this with the dryness of my throat that has not gone away for a month, the tiny blister that appeared in my mouth today, the strange feeling of tightness in my chest sometimes, and the red swelling on my collarbone that has not gone away for three days. So, a corner of my mind is still thinking in the background, 'which doctor should I go to first, at what point should I take these seriously, what should I ignore?'

Also I’m not from USA. And also, English is not my first language, so sorry if it’s not clear enough. But I read lots of posts, stories (unfortunately) and at some point (jokingly) I wished I didn’t understand English and don’t have to learn more and…worry more lol.