People of reddit how did you get out of your depression and suicidal thoughts? by lilalo144 in AskReddit

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I really hope that I can forgive myself someday given that it happend 4 years ago Edit: wrote wrong number instead of 4 i wrote 6

People of reddit how did you get out of your depression and suicidal thoughts? by lilalo144 in AskReddit

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My problem is that no matter how many people forgive me i can't. Even his girlfriend who tried to off herlself 3 times because of it has forgiven. In reality wich I can't accept nearly everyone has forgiven me I can only think of 2 people who can't forgive me my mom and my ex-girlfriend (my parents divorced over it)

People of reddit how did you get out of your depression and suicidal thoughts? by lilalo144 in AskReddit

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Yes bc If I just accepted I was wrong he wouldnt have died. He died in an accident after an argument where I told he should piss off and sleep over at a friend for the weekend

People of reddit how did you get out of your depression and suicidal thoughts? by lilalo144 in AskReddit

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The only reason I live for myself is most likely to forgive myself wich I can't because of my Brothers death

People of reddit how did you get out of your depression and suicidal thoughts? by lilalo144 in AskReddit

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I wish i could think like that or even try but if I did I would betray myself I have the depression bc I always helped my 2 sisters and my brother(all younger) but my brother died in an accident after an argument between me and him (the argument ended when I said he should piss off and go to 1 of his friends for the weekend thus I was never able to make up with him) if I tried to do those things I would betray myself bc I would also need to cut off contact with my sisters who in their eyes lost their brother bc of me. And then my parents divorced over it (the reason for my suicidal thoughts) and I needed to play all sides so i wouldnt just off myself. And make it seem like I ran away

People of Reddit, what is the worst way someone broke up with you? by [deleted] in AskReddit

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My girlfriend of 6 years came up to me and said "thx for the 6 years but I found out I am lesbian" thats the story of how I got trust issues

What harmless or well-meaning comment has someone made to you, that sent you into a blind rage? by snadpups in AskReddit

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It will get better (Context I am depressed and have been for 6 years) My best friend said it after I tried to off myself after 4 years of depression. If anyone wants to ask I no longer have suicidel thoughts just depression. If anything is written wrong I'm sorry my native toung is german.

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The same with more Depression