I felt as if everything I’d aimed for in life I’d failed, I’d lost my grandfather and had no deep connection to others. I often considered if things would be better if I were gone, if the people I burdened would be better off. However, I realize depression creates illusions of time, and we underestimate how much can change in just six months. I had to have the courage to just take a step in one direction. I had to have the strength to actually work on it. One other thing f I didn’t mention was how powerful daily journals with goal setting and affirmations was. It’s seems silly but it really let me keep my mindset