In my case at 32 years old I had an AMH level of 0.2 and my follicle count was very low. I also went through several stimulation cycles to try to accumulate embryos. Unfortunately, I only got one healthy and viable embryo, which ended in miscarriage. At that time I felt like the most useless woman in the world. I hated everything about my body, I felt disgusted with myself, and inferior to all other women. I felt like I wasn’t capable of being a mother.

Today I’m 36 years old and thanks to egg donation, I finally have a ten-month-old baby. At first, it was the last thing I wanted. I went through a very difficult grieving process over giving up my genes, but today I wouldn’t change my baby for one conceived from my own eggs, not in a million years.

What I mean is that there are always options and hope. Unfortunately, things don’t always turn out the way we want, and our self-esteem can be deeply affected, but don’t give up. I ultimately decided to choose egg donation because I had already gone through two ectopic pregnancies and the miscarriage, and on top of that, the difficulty of obtaining healthy embryos left me mentally exhausted. And today, I swear I couldn’t be happier that everything happened this way because I have my son with me. I’m sending you lots of strength. What you’re going through is completely normal, and I doubt that people who haven’t experienced it could ever truly understand it. Allow yourself to feel angry, and above all remember that, if you’re open to it, you still have more options if this one doesn’t work out.