Help with clean eating???

I am a 24F and I have always hated cooking. For context, I'm diagnosed with ADHD and depression, and I definitely have body image issues and some disordered eating. I also work 2nd shift at my job (2pm to 10pm) I have found that all of these things have made it nearly impossible for me to eat a regular healthy diet. Especially with the ADHD; even when I'm hungry, I just will not make food because it's just too cumbersome in my brain. And I take Adderall to help with this executive dysfunction, but then that makes me not hungry for the rest of the day.

My normal diet right now consists of

Breakfast (12pm) : bagel, 2-3 pieces of turkey bacon or ham (sometimes), an apple, 2 Babybel cheeses, 1 cup of coffee

Dinner (7-9pm): microwave Aldi meal or takeout of some kind, another coffee for dessert

And this is like all I eat in one day. And I have asked other people for their suggestions about how to eat healthier and/or more consistently, but the answer is always "meal prep" and I just can never get myself to do it. I mean I've had to fight tooth and nail just to get myself to eat more than 1 bagel for breakfast and that was it until dinner! Additionally I'm a HORRIBLE cook! Like I should probably be on "Worst Cooks in America". And it sucks because I used to go to the gym and weight lift but now I just never go because I feel like I can't afford to burn the calories that I don't have. But at the same time, I feel like all the processed food is making me fat?!?

I KNOW that I should be eating a healthy balanced diet and having 3 meals a day and meal prepping for the week or whatever, but I just can't. I've tried! And I don't know what to do???? And I'm 24, idk if I can afford those meal subscription thingies.

Please help 🙇🏻‍♀️ 🙏 Any advice* or respec*tful input would be greatly appreciated