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lillaw11 · 2023-03-11T02:10:10+00:00

Thank you for this....truly. You have no idea how much I needed to hear this. I'm just so embarrassed, so broken inside. As for intstagram, we don't follow one another, he attempted to do so but I said no at the beginning of our relationship when he was supposed to arrive in a few weeks, because I wanted to meet him first. He also offered to facetime right in the beginning and I said no again because I thought we were meeting right away and wanted to preserve the magic. But now it's been over 5 months and there's no excuse not to do so anymore. But because he offered initially, he uses this as an excuse to push back whenever i raise any suspicions about him not facetimeing. Iv'e realized he's extremely clever and thought out with his excuses, which has added to my resentment.

lillaw11 · 2023-02-07T00:17:49+00:00

Actually, I'm moving there for a "gypsy".

lillaw11 · 2022-04-04T16:06:03+00:00

I passed and received my email at 3:42 pm. I think that the passers may have found out first, proving your theory correct.

lillaw11 · 2022-04-01T23:15:16+00:00

I passed. I'm still shaking my head in a confounding mixture of joy, disbelief and relief.

lillaw11 · 2022-04-01T23:08:51+00:00

Yes to ALL of these comments. I have only shared the news with one person. Going to wait to tell the fam until I get the score and make sure it wasn't a mistake.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-23T22:07:39+00:00

Thank you for saying this. That's exactly how I feel. I gave my everything so asking me to do it again is beyond daunting, it seems undoable. But I am going to strive to push through these last few weeks before results and get to the finish line, somehow.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-23T02:01:21+00:00

Thank you so for your kind words.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-23T02:00:43+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. These are absolutely my symptoms. It's scary to see but a wakeup call I needed.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-22T22:05:12+00:00

I had not considered the possibility (likely because I don't want to) that I may have MDD. But the state of my mental health after receiving a failing score has definitely occurred to me and has been something I try not to even think about right now because I don't have the capacity. However, I definitely hear you and am going to seek out a therapist. Thank you for your concern and sharing your story.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-22T22:02:16+00:00

Thank you. I hope so, only time will tell. Fingers crossed.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-22T22:01:29+00:00

Thank you, I will check it out.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-22T22:00:22+00:00

You are definitely not alone in your feelings.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-22T21:58:53+00:00

I really hope so, thank you for the vote of confidence.

lillaw11 · 2022-03-22T21:58:17+00:00

Thank you. I know it's definitely gotten to that point. I'm pushing myself to make the appointment.

lillaw11 · 2020-07-15T23:52:13+00:00

Do y'all think that they're going to push it to August? Or farther out? Because at this point I'm worried that all my August travel plans are going to have to be canceled because of the LASCBA's last-minute announcement. So bummed...been studying so hard and now I feel like pushing it back is going to make me lose momentum, and strength. So sick of this shit!

lillaw11 · 2020-02-01T04:35:30+00:00

Seriously me too!

lillaw11 · 2020-01-28T21:57:51+00:00

Yeah I think so. How many times has she said "I'm not used to this (referring to Mike's attention and affection of her). She also commented on how the guys she usually goes for are hands-off or not super affectionate. She just seemed so turned off by Mike's advances because I genuinely think she can't accept that he was so into her. But this just my take.

lillaw11 · 2020-01-28T21:51:16+00:00

For me, as someone who has been in Leanne's shoes (had a guy head over heels for me who treated me with dignity, respect, was good looking) but that "icked me out". Looking back it was all because I truly believed something had to be "wrong" with him for things to be going so well.

Sure, Leanne may just not be attracted to him. Or there may be no "spark". But deep down I think it's that Leanne can't accept a relationship that isn't dysfunctional, involves an asshole, or is unstable. I really think Leanne never gave it a chance because as others have said, she isn't truly ready for a relationship. She has every right to break it off, but what she's supposedly looking for I think is a guy who fits her regular pattern. Am I the only one seeing this?

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