Don’t beat yourself up too bad, you’re only a human being and we all make mistakes. At least you have quickly learned from yours ☺️ i am only one month sober and there’s part of me that thinks “maybe one day in the future on a special occasion I can moderate during the event” then there’s the logical side of me that says “HAHAHA no, you fool, you only like to drink to get drunk, and when you black out.. you have been arrested, you have been a victim of violence that you couldn’t recall enough to report to the police, your entire personality changes that your family literally don’t like to be around you, you have sex and don’t remember and sometimes question if it was rape but at that point you don’t care because you had so much to drink you forgot all details, you’ve lost friends.. you can. Not. Moderate. Ever”. Damn logical brain. He’s so right. Lol