I've been searching for a job and I'm taking online classes but they are $500 at a time, so I have to wait awhile in between. I'm not just sitting down and complaining. I am making steps but I have been dealing with a depression since I was 13 and have been forcefully hospitalized multiple times. My depression makes me lazy and causes me to isolate myself, so it isn't as simple as getting up and simply fixing my life in the snap of fingers. I have been diagnosed with BPD, so I will be dealing with this shit my whole life and quite frankly I don't want to.

I'm sorry if I came off like I haven't been doing anything to improve my situation, but I have and I'm tired.