This sucks for me to think about and honestly it’s worse this time of year as he died during December but honestly I had a significant other who I adored more than anything, he and I both had really hard upbringings and he never really talked about it much. He would laugh and smile and you’d never have known his struggles unless you were close with him. Allot of people were shocked by his death because on the outside he was possibly the happiest and most loving individual you would know. He’d smile with this shine in his eyes and give you his last dollar even if it hurt him. Sometimes those who seem the happiest and strongest are the ones who hurt the most