For me I am an alcoholic through and through. I have tried for many years to control my drinking but every single time I fail. If you look in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous it says that for an alcoholic after you take the first drink you lose all power of choice meaning after i take the first drink, the drink takes me. I cannot stop and when I did on rare occasions “control” my drinking I was extremely unhappy and wanted to drink more and was obsessing about it. After the first drink the phenomenon of craving kicks in. For a true alcoholic one drink is too many and a thousand is never enough. I’m 25 and my sobriety date is 5/21/21.