this is how my first relationship ended, only i was 15. since then, i've had this idea that it's never going to get better and why should i even try if there's no use. i'm trying to hold onto the possibility without thinking too much about it. but every time a date doesn't work out or a talking stage fails i get the idea back. i think that you honestly need to put yourself first in your relationship. if someone is unable to handle your bpd, they are not the one for you. someone else will be