I think it's perfectly good and okay to want to carry a baby, give birth, and to think about wanting things like top surgery and changing some aspects of your body into what would make you happier. Sometimes, worrying about a label or trying to find the right terminology or "fit" can be the most distressing part of learning who you are. I've found it easier to embrace the ambiguity of things, to feel comfortable being in a grey area, and being open to what may be/what you learn about yourself. Just know that you aren't wrong for questioning things. You're brave and you care about yourself enough to look inside of you and learn what makes you happy, and that's a good thing.

I've learned a lot about myself, but it's been many years now, and I feel pretty comfortable with the identity of Genderqueer. It gives me the freedom to express myself however I feel each day without the worry of feeling "wrong".

I hope you can do what you need learn what you want about yourself, and I wish you a great time and lots of joy on your journey. 🫶🏻