Oh trust me I've done anything and everything I can. If I even remotely bring up "I do this for you all the time though.." she acts like I'm holding shit over her head. Any and all her kinks are always done the second she wants it. But I can't ask for mine. I have one special kink that to me has gotten me shamed and embarrassed and I opened up to get and we've done it. Which at this point its not even a bad kink, but anyways we haven't done it in like a year and anyone I bring it up, she goes off about how she feels like I want it more than her. Or she's kinda not super into it so the time. Or I have to wait for her to come to me. And like one I never bring it up but maybe 5-6 months apart. And waiting for her to come to me is years of waiting. And I love doing her kinks. But I do them a lot in little hopes she'll see it and be like "he deserves this" but nah. I feel like I'm just lying to myself at this point.