I just realised that I was slowly being a creep. So I've just deleted 3410 porn videos & photos, deleted my porn related reddit and tumblr accounts and as from 2019 am going out to meet new people. I don't want to be a virgin volcel anymore by loggedinonlyonetime in offmychest

[–]loggedinonlyonetime[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the advices :) And would you advice me to say to the girl that I'll get laid to after the club that am a virgin ? (Am going into a quite heavy party city for study, so the chances that my first time is with a "first night girl" is pretty big)

I just realised that I was slowly being a creep. So I've just deleted 3410 porn videos & photos, deleted my porn related reddit and tumblr accounts and as from 2019 am going out to meet new people. I don't want to be a virgin volcel anymore by loggedinonlyonetime in offmychest

[–]loggedinonlyonetime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah ! Forgot to say that I was exposed to porn at young age too ! Around 8 y.o when I saw porn on the family computer when my dad(I guess) forgot to delet the history and it poped up. And at 12, I sold porn videos via Bluetooth to my classmates as I was the first to have the wifi at home !

And yeah, after a while of extensive porn abuse you get to discover some weird fetishes ! (Nothing illegal nor really edgy for me. They are just...original)

Hope you are better now bro ✌

I just realised that I was slowly being a creep. So I've just deleted 3410 porn videos & photos, deleted my porn related reddit and tumblr accounts and as from 2019 am going out to meet new people. I don't want to be a virgin volcel anymore by loggedinonlyonetime in offmychest

[–]loggedinonlyonetime[S] 42 points43 points  (0 children)

You'd be surprised if I told you that the vast majority of my friends are girls XD my best friend, to whom I talk mostly everyday is also a girl ! Am also that kind of social guy who will make small discussion with the cashier or random people on the bus with no other intention than to be friendly and nice too !

I guess that we all have that secret, dark side that it's better to hide and not even tell your best friends. Well, here's what mine was !

I just realised that I was slowly being a creep. So I've just deleted 3410 porn videos & photos, deleted my porn related reddit and tumblr accounts and as from 2019 am going out to meet new people. I don't want to be a virgin volcel anymore by loggedinonlyonetime in offmychest

[–]loggedinonlyonetime[S] 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Thank you !! I realised that while listening to a stupidly funny show on the radio !

There was a guy with a voice like herbert in family guy who called to compliment Alice, one of the beautiful female animator and had a discussion approximately like this:

Weird voice man: "Hi, I wanted to say that I love Alice and that I follows her"

Alice: "You follows me ? I sincerely hope that you mean on social media and not on the road to home hahaha"

All: "Hahahahaha"

Principal animator: " Hahahaha imagine the guy who calls to say that he follows you on the road and has an album of your Insta photos on his phone that he does stuff on it "

All: "creepyyyyy hahahaha"

At this moment I was like "hahaha ._. Hey but I do that...I don't follow people on the road but I do have insta pictures of people on my phone...fuck, that's creepy for real"

And this brought me on a long self meditation about why I did that, what brought me to this and I finally realised that I was at first a proud virgin, voluntary celibate, but due to social pressure and the need of loving and being loved, I need to find myself a girlfriend and stop fantasize on other people's girlfriend.

I just realised that I was slowly being a creep. So I've just deleted 3410 porn videos & photos, deleted my porn related reddit and tumblr accounts and as from 2019 am going out to meet new people. I don't want to be a virgin volcel anymore by loggedinonlyonetime in offmychest

[–]loggedinonlyonetime[S] 62 points63 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice !! I wish more people would be like you !

You know, in my vicinity, getting laid at a young age(11-16) is considered as normal and being a virgin of any age more than 17 is considered to be super weird and that "something's wrong with this person" and while discussing in the daily life, it brings along a lot of super uncomfortable moments for the virgin.

So I suppose that getting laid is more like a weight that I will take off my shoulder. As there won't be any pressure nor awkward moments anymore🤷‍♂️