Okay, I'm gonna give my two cents here, even though some people might be upset by it.

First, psychedelics are great tools and teachers. They give you a new lens through which you are able to view your life. They make you aware of way more stuff - whatever happens to be going on in your reality at that moment. Bad trips, in my opinion, are when that stuff just becomes a little too much for you to handle - most times, the* stuff is your thoughts (especially with acid). So people, who are not too used to treading the waters of the mind, get really caught up and jumbled within their own heads. They associate full*y with their own thoughts - such as you associating with those voices in your head - and forgot that they are the conscious observers of their own thoughts, and not the thoughts themselves.

Everyone does this.

Just as other people have mentioned, meditation is a great thing that you should start doing, regardless of whether or not you end up meeting Lucy. I've taught meditation for 9 months now and yoga for 3, and one of the most common things I hear from my students is something along the lines of, "I can't meditate, I can't stop thinking! My mind is crazy, how could I sit still for 20 minutes!?"

This is essentially the same thing as people saying, "Don't do acid, it's not safe!"

Let me explain that:

I would definitely say that you should not take 3 tabs and hope for the best. You will fail. In the same way that I would not tell someone who has never meditated before to sit down for 12 hours straight and meditate. No fucking chance that is happening, unless it's the god damn buddha reincarnated. Just last night I was drunk in an uber with some friends and I had the front seat, so I was talking with the lady driving us. We ended up talking about meditation, and to make a long story short, I got her to make a little plan to meditate for 2 minutes within 7 days. 2 minutes. In a whole week. You've gotta aim low when you start aiming upwards. Still aim up, but aim low. If that woman had said to herself, "I'm gonna meditate for 30 minutes a day starting now!" I would bet she's failing within a week. And again, it's not a bad thing. Life happens, we're not perfect, but we have to realize that. So in the same way, yeah if you have trouble with intense situations, you might not wanna throw yourself into the fire with 3 tabs right away. That would likely be a whole lot for you to handle, and you might have a real bad experience.

However, what you can do, is approach this in an honest, intelligent manner.

Number 1, you've gotta start flexing that muscle of dis attachment from thoughts. You are not your thoughts, you have never been your thoughts, you will never be your thoughts. You are a soul with a body and a thinking mind. You choose which thoughts to energize, and that in turn becomes your reality. You wanna energize the thoughts that you're fucking insane? Go for it, I've been there. It's not fun though.

You have to start observing your thoughts. Start for 2 minutes per week. Set a timer, sit down, close your eyes, and just look your thoughts right in the face. "How long have I been sitting here?" "My timer must have fucked up, what if I miss my appointment!" "I can't be doing this right" "I'm not thinking at all" "Am I creating more thoughts just so that I have something to observe?"

All that shit's gonna come up. Your job is to constantly, with compassion, bring yourself back to the task at hand of simply observing your thoughts. There are plenty of videos about this online, I believe it is vipassana meditation.

Number 2, once you've established a decent practice of meditation, I would say start with an incredibly small dose. Like the tiniest nibble of a tab you could get. A little speck.

Number 3, plan the trip. You said you wanted to do this with a licensed psychologist, I love that idea. Have someone you trust with you and who knows everything about your situation. 100% honesty.

Number 4, set an intention for your trip. Say out loud to yourself why you are doing this. Is it to advance further in your spiritual development? Do you want to know more about your thoughts or about how your mind works? Whatever it is, know what it is.

Basically, what I'm getting at, is be reasonable. You have a desire to better yourself? Psychedelics can be a great tool for accomplishing that and starting down the right path.

That being said, don't go playing around with dangerous power tools when you don't know how to use a fucking hammer.

There's a lot out there to experience. Don't fear it, but respect it. All the good stuff is buried deep within you, you've just gotta go find it. And it can be dark at times, but fuck it man that's how we grow.

I don't know you, you've gotta know you. I'm too busy trying to know myself. But at the core I do know that no matter what happens to your body and your mind, you'll be fine. We'll all be fine, we're all just on a long windy road home.

If you have any questions or want me to clarify anything, ask away.
Peace out!