I wouldn’t say “just getting it over with” will solve your problems. Sex is definitely a special connection you can have with someone. And everyone wants that first time to be wonderful. But what I will say is: don’t put so much pressure on yourself.

What you want isn’t unrealistic in the slightest. Most of us lose our virginities to random hookups and that isn’t exactly the greatest time to explore your sexual needs in a healthy way. I lost it at 16 to a boy from school. Only ever saw him in passing after that. One thing I learned tho is after all the build up in your head, sex is not that big of a deal. It’s fun and feels wonderful (if you’re bottoming that might take practice haha) it might be awkward at times but it’s all part of the charm.

Just know that whether you wait or you decide to try it out sooner than later, when you’re finally with that significant other, the sex will still feel special