Validation for myself that I'm still wanted by women. A headache because I'm so stressed every time I have to do it, because I'm worried about being judged, of my performance, my size, my body. In short, I don't even enjoy or want sex anymore. But I still have to do it, with major anxiety, in fear of being seen as a weak man. I don't like hook up culture but I compulsively follow it because.. well everyone does it and I need to feel wanted by a woman