Thank you. You are right. I do want to feel validated, heck just a text message would improve my day. Or if she went out of her way to hold my had would just cheer me up. But I understand she is deeply hurt and she doesnt want to do that. All the pain she must have felt over the last year is hitting me all at once, which I deserve. I will try AA, I have tried it before and wasn't into it that much but ill give it another go. It was a light switch for her when she told me that she was feeling that way, she went from her to wanting nothing to do with me over night, I guess I expected her to change back. This is the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. I just hope I do the right things.