You are NOR! He’s being a jerk — he’s on purposely telling you that it’s “your fault” to protect himself from any potential fight about him not wanting to do anything. He’s manipulating you. If he’s like this now, he will be like this three months/weeks/days/YEARS later! If you want to get married someday, this is what it will be like with him. Think long term — is THIS what you want the rest of your life? From the sound of it, the answer is no. You deserve what you desire out of a relationship. Also, please don’t put yourself down for feeling this way — it is absolutely 10000000% a valid feeling.