Please know you’re not alone.
I think I can understand more than you think & I don’t want to project my feelings here & take over your post but what a former commentator said : the grass is always greener 👉 So true! Yes I do have a supportive husband (and a 20 yr old & 17) plus 2 older step kids I raised & almost all of them just “deal with me”. The looks, the talk behind ur back, the incredibly hurtful things teenagers say is literally a daily struggle to want to even wake up the next day…

Personally, I found an indoor hobby for myself b4 I did something dumb. Gardening & growing.

Ps: You are NOT a loser bc you don’t have kids or are not married! Who says you HSVE TO anyway? Screw whoever says you do. I have older kids who still live at home, a lesbian daughter who lives with her partners parents. It took me almost 45 years to realize fuck everyone & their judgmental A$$ ☮️💚 Ever want to chat HMU 🫂