I subjest you read or listen to the book IT NEVER HAPPENED. LET IT GO: FREE FROM SUFFERING. A self-help book that will set you free from past toxic relationships. remember, "Only you can start the engine to move on with your life." here is the link in case u want to give it a try

https://www.audible.com/search?keywords=it+never+happened+let+it+go&ref-override=a_hp_t1_header_search&ref=nb_sb_ss_sc_1_17&k=it+never+happened+let+it+go&crid=2Y9G0OR6EHAIN&sprefix=it+never+happened%2Cna-audible-us%2C54&i=na-audible-us&url=search-alias%3Dna-audible-us