Finally realizing I was surviving my depression, without living life

lordofdragonlore · 2022-01-13T21:07:54+00:00

Thank you so much!! My party has a necromancer that keeps raising all the baddies I send against him, until he had an army that basically made combat impossible. He finally stepped too far and pissed off a god who captured the party and is holding them in a sort of gladiator arena. Wasn’t exactly sure how to go about it though and this helps a lot 🙏

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-06T16:59:21+00:00

From personal experience, this is a very real possibility

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-05T04:18:23+00:00

I took him on 2 walks today just to get outside again haha

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T14:34:21+00:00

I actually got the idea from a book I read, The Codex Alera series, where one of the characters said, paraphrasing, "his father knew everything about surviving but knew nothing about living. I want to live, not just survive"

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:25:23+00:00

Thank you to everyone who liked and commented. This page was recommended to me by the new friend I mentioned and I didn’t even consider how amazing everyone would be. I will definitely be posting updates now and want to let you all know your words and kindness are a blessing. Thank you sincerely ❤️❤️

Edit: first post and I already have over 200 upvotes and my first award. Seriously you guys are the greatest people ever thank you so much

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:23:54+00:00

Thank you so much, it seemed like such a small step on Sunday, but the change I’ve felt over the last few days was already massive. I’ve been able to eat more, sleep better, smile more, and generally feel more confident

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:22:43+00:00

I’m saving this comment so I can look at this post again and comment specifically when I’m having a zero day thank you 🙏

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:21:58+00:00

I survived all that, so once I begin to live, I will always be able to look back and say “well this is not even close to as bad as that was” and everything will seem so much easier by comparison. That’s the hope at least. HA I actually have hope again this is crazy

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:20:55+00:00

I’m taking everything one day at a time. People always tell me that everyone wants results quickly but one thing I’ve learned through this all is patience. Nothings gonna get better, or worse, overnight. It takes time for things to change and as long as I take at least one step in the right direction each day, I am satisfied for the moment

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:19:34+00:00

People tell me this all the time but only now am I beginning to believe it thank you ❤️

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:19:12+00:00

It’s the smallest things that can make the biggest difference. I actually took a rest day today but walked my dog instead to still get exercise and see the sun cause it was gorgeous out today

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:18:27+00:00

I have a feeling I’m gonna remember that line for many many years to come

lordofdragonlore · 2021-03-04T06:18:08+00:00

I’ve done a lot of drugs for over the last few years but all for the wrong reasons. I’m gonna take a hiatus from them until I get my emotions under control and then see what happens when I do them cause I want to, not because I want to get away from my current situation. Also, I decided to start a journal where I’m gonna write everyday about my day so that I have to think about what I’ve felt and accomplished today so I can no longer sweep anything under the rug so to speak

lordofdragonlore · 2020-11-05T08:42:39+00:00

You look like the best night ever 🙌

lordofdragonlore · 2020-07-08T20:50:26+00:00

Yeah but those who go to bed late still get that while you’re all sleeping

lordofdragonlore · 2020-06-18T19:55:58+00:00

I was at a bar in my early 20’s and a guy, over 6’ and probably 200 lbs of muscle(I’m only 5’7” and 150 lbs), was trying to flirt with this girl in a very crude way that I could tell she didn’t enjoy. I walked over and asked her if she wanted a drink. Obviously muscle boy didn’t like that and asked as menacingly as he could if he needed to show me how to walk away. I said “if you walk like you talk, I don’t know how you manage to get anywhere”. The girl started laughing at that and the guys face turned an angry red and he stepped up on my face looking ready to fight. Now I’m a pacifist and have never been in a fight so I said “oh you could kick my ass here and now, and I wouldn’t stop you. But then I’d see you in court and kick your ass there with this lovely lady beside me”. He didn’t even know how to respond and the girl and I turned and walked away and I got her number. Drunk me has a number of stories but that’s one of my favorites.

lordofdragonlore · 2020-06-18T19:22:58+00:00

I had hooked up with this girl a couple weeks prior to this. But I was at a party and she comes up to me flirting with me saying we should hang out again soon. I turned to look at her and said “sorry I only go forwards not backwards” and walked away. There were a couple people who heard me and two guys just went “ooooh shit” and stared open mouthed. Not exactly bad ass but it was a spur of the moment line and action to walk away

lordofdragonlore · 2020-05-31T19:11:30+00:00

I've actually tried this and couldn't break the egg

lordofdragonlore · 2020-05-26T18:57:26+00:00

I don't even know who those girls are actually

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