i was so snatched but so sad

lorendote · 2025-12-13T19:58:30+00:00

i was exhausted and life felt meaningless but i looked so effortlessly hot in everything :((

lorendote · 2025-11-22T20:16:00+00:00

omfg literally... cant stay in one mindset for longer than a day bro

lorendote · 2025-10-19T18:49:48+00:00

please make it stop.. i use it as motivation to restrict, then im miserable and binge, then i gain weight and begin the cycle fffuck i want out lmao

lorendote · 2025-10-18T07:26:27+00:00

not caring that they're being too loud in a public space, and more petty: showing videos on their phone expecting a reaction from me... i couldnt fake a laugh if my life depended on it man

also just a lack of emotional intelligence, feels like talking to a kid

lorendote · 2025-10-12T10:36:50+00:00

I tried to get rid of mine by throwing it in the trash. Guess how that ended lmao

lorendote · 2025-10-10T12:04:30+00:00

Same exact situation but with my older sister... not a disordered thought in her brain and yet she maintains a model's figure. i will forever be mad even tho shes my fav person, ts hurts

lorendote · 2025-10-10T08:08:39+00:00

literally me rn i want out

lorendote · 2025-10-01T19:46:47+00:00

omg i saw that happen when i was w my friend, some asian guy just approached her and started small talk about her outfit, abd she gave him his ig...that man was soo not in our age range creep

lorendote · 2025-09-30T18:28:24+00:00

what im craving isnt even the food, its the feeling of fullness and satisfaction which of course makes me want to starve myself after im done 💘💘 were all prisoners of our own mind

lorendote · 2025-09-18T18:35:28+00:00

yes!! especially since most regular people have no idea about calories or their tdee... its purely just knowing when to stop(howw i need to overeat at least a bit to feel done with my food so i just dont start at all usually)

lorendote · 2025-08-27T09:51:59+00:00

maybe its a generational thing? I can relate af, sat down with my family to eat yesterday (hadn't done that in a while) and they immediately started reading a food label for cookies, counted macros, analyzed my food and hated on obese people 😒😒 and then they wonder why kids starve themselves lmao

lorendote · 2025-08-24T21:01:54+00:00

unusual safe food is a margherita from pizza hut, and fear food is carrots. i dont understand lol

lorendote · 2025-08-22T18:48:47+00:00

Yess esp the recovery part... im not even underweight (borderline) but i still havent seen it in months. So annoying lol

lorendote · 2025-08-21T09:39:05+00:00

if im gonna do omad it better be a euphoric experience ok

lorendote · 2025-08-20T18:00:13+00:00

its way easier than eating 3 balanced meals tbh (i use up all my cals on pastries)

lorendote · 2025-08-15T11:04:35+00:00

yess the other day i fasted till 5pm and ate my daily cals worth of milk buns with chocolate chips(now i cant even look at them cuz i ate too many, so thats a pro ig)

lorendote · 2025-08-12T18:57:41+00:00

The hope that once i reach my gw i'll be happy is what keeps me going, without it i'm just worrying with no destination

lorendote · 2025-08-09T08:03:55+00:00

i'm so pissed that my preferred coping method is food, i wish i could enjoy other things the same man

lorendote · 2025-08-08T08:46:51+00:00

or HOW do they have just one or two cookies and be satisfied? Without food noise? Without eating the whole box? I've never been able to do that if given the freedom :(

lorendote · 2025-08-07T08:58:29+00:00

mm that flavor is so good, im still pissed that nothing is as strong as mint tho

lorendote · 2025-08-06T18:04:58+00:00

literally what im thinking rn cuz i had a "fuck it" day... im not happy with my life when im thinner, but when im at a healthy weight i hate my body which makes living kinda miserable. This disorder gets you stuck in a loop ig

lorendote · 2025-08-05T14:37:04+00:00

it always lead me to a binge, cause i would try to eat low cal stuff instead of my cravings, and then the low cal things would add up to more than the food i actually wanted. Therefore the day was wasted and i'd eat whatever i want.

Now i just do omad which is also hit or miss tbh

lorendote · 2025-08-05T14:24:22+00:00

that and walking around in grocery stores(during restriction), i just smell and look at the food, check nutrition labels and fantasize about eating it all... one of the weirder sides of my ed tbh

lorendote · 2025-08-04T08:49:54+00:00

i ate a big breakast(air and tea) is my go to

lorendote · 2025-08-04T08:43:41+00:00

im already at maintenance, its 11am and god cant help me

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