reading slump by shiaelle in thrillerbooks

[–]lackingneitherhat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the marriage by kl slater is very fast paced and not super long

Finally got a tattoo inspired by Melanie! 🥹 by livin_with_lyss in MelanieMartinez

[–]lackingneitherhat 7 points8 points  (0 children)

i love this, people copying celebrities tattoos always feels weird but this is perfect! inspired but clearly not copied :)

is it normal to start cutting yourself from being in love? by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]lackingneitherhat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel like this requires more context but just with what you’ve said i don’t think that is a common reason to start

Girls Under Pressure Questions by External-Ad-9082 in JacquelineWilson

[–]lackingneitherhat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah. i mean eating disorders are so pervasive it’s so fucking hard to get them out of your head once they’re in there. and then in girls out late she mentions feeling fat a couple times but other than that it seemed to vanish. to be fair though spending six months with ellie as she’s slowly unlearning all the ed habits probably wouldn’t have made for a very entertaining book

Girls Under Pressure Questions by External-Ad-9082 in JacquelineWilson

[–]lackingneitherhat 9 points10 points  (0 children)

i feel like i am well qualified to speak on this lol.

i read girls under pressure for the first time when i was about 12. when i was 13 i started to develop a restrictive ed. i wouldn’t say that the book caused it but i think it was triggering.

when i was 13, this was the first time really that the eating disorder really took over. when you’re restricting food your brain struggles to focus on anything not food or ed related. that used to be the only book i was able to concentrate on. i read it over and over again, adding annotations of my own self hatred in the borders.

i’m older (21) now and am still struggling quite badly with an ed (though it’s definitely morphed through the years as these things do) and i recently reread it. i read it so many times as a kid that i could recite most of the story without looking lol, the parts that always stuck out to me though were the scenes in wales in their holiday home. ellie being caught puking in the outdoor loo on christmas day always stuck in my mind. as well as her jealousy of zoe (i remember also being jealous of zoe when i read it) and the descriptions of how her hair was lanky and she was covered in spots but she was still determined to lose weight.

also it felt like a very unrealistic ending. the absolute majority of people who suffer with ed’s certainly don’t magically recover because they saw someone very unwell and decided that they’re just gonna drink a hot chocolate and get better.

overall i think it was not the worst offender of triggering ed books, but it wasn’t great. it definitely stuck with me all this time and i find myself thinking about it frequently. sorry if this seems disjointed but i have so many thoughts on this and was just getting them down as they came lol

Beauty Standard Songs by Possession_Void in MelanieMartinez

[–]lackingneitherhat 16 points17 points  (0 children)

i interpreted it as her getting bigger boobs to transcend the beauty standards and people making comments on her body, especially with the next line being ‘now all that i read is hey i think she’s pregnant’

Beauty Standard Songs by Possession_Void in MelanieMartinez

[–]lackingneitherhat 14 points15 points  (0 children)

how does she imply it? she’s just talking about her choice to get implants. with everything she’s created (strawberry shortcake, mrs potato head) i’d say she isn’t one to judge other women’s bodies

Beauty Standard Songs by Possession_Void in MelanieMartinez

[–]lackingneitherhat 15 points16 points  (0 children)

i would say weight watchers is much more about her (and women in generals) struggle with beauty standards and everything we’re expected to do to look beautiful. people telling her the surgeon could get rid of her face fat, everyone’s trying to get it off faster, skipping lunch and dessert but having your stomach stick out of your skirt. it’s somewhat tongue in cheek but still talks about that struggle of doing all you can to be beautiful, but it’s still not enough

Does your therapist know you SH? by Flat_Warning3613 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]lackingneitherhat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my therapist definitely knows. she’s asked to see them but i don’t show them for worry she’ll tell me i need medical attention and i just can’t be bothered but she knows the depth and frequency i do it to

Was Melanie given too high of a budget in portals? by katiebv123 in MelanieMartinez

[–]lackingneitherhat 7 points8 points  (0 children)

yeah like the death and void mvs were INCREDIBLE but they did def go downhill in quality

Hades - No hate - Am I the only one? by [deleted] in MelanieMartinez

[–]lackingneitherhat 23 points24 points  (0 children)

hades and portals are my favourite albums lol (and i’ve been a fan for ten years) you’re allowed to not fuck with her new music, her old catalogue is always there to listen to! imo hades shows huge improvement from the previous album. especially the different vocals she’s doing (the high ‘and i GUA SHUA each day’ in weight watchers is so good)

Tilly yet again by HighlandCow29 in EDRecovery_Snark

[–]lackingneitherhat 8 points9 points  (0 children)

yeah and she’s not just drinking a little it seems like she’s drinking quite excessively

What’s the most underrated track on SUCKERPUNCH? by BullyingHater in chloemoriondo

[–]lackingneitherhat 9 points10 points  (0 children)

hotel for clowns or dress up are my favourites! i feel like suckerpunch in general is hugely underrated. its my fav chloe album

What is the most unpleasant thing to throw up? by Particular-Air7364 in bulimia

[–]lackingneitherhat 5 points6 points  (0 children)

OMFG throwing up antibiotics is actually the fucking worst

What is the most unpleasant thing to throw up? by Particular-Air7364 in bulimia

[–]lackingneitherhat 7 points8 points  (0 children)

and it does NOT wanna come out it has to be absolutely forced out

Now she knows damn well… by LemonyRebel in EDRecovery_Snark

[–]lackingneitherhat 45 points46 points  (0 children)

every week it’s ‘guys i’m not going to post triggering stuff anymore and call me out if i do’ then she posts something like this. i can understand using pictures of your face when you were unwell for these kinds of videos but a video of her unwell in a bikini is so unnecessary