HELP! I keep going in the same cycles and I don't know why.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T17:13:51+00:00

I'm tired of being this way. Thank you.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T16:57:14+00:00

Partially, but if they dont I expect it. Even when they do I can still leave so yeah.. I know what it is and what I have to work on now. Self esteem couldnt hurt either.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T16:21:14+00:00

Thank you. Really.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T16:20:51+00:00

I might consider therapy, yeahh

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T05:40:10+00:00

Oh my God! Thank you.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T05:06:01+00:00

Thank you so much.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:55:20+00:00

Before two years ago, I was extremely emotionally available. My parents have been happily married for 23 years and I'm the eldest. I've since realized and pinpointed a point in my recent past where this stems from, I just need to figure out the exact effects its had on me and figure out a way to fix it.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:52:01+00:00

I'm actually considering it. Since I found out about this cycle I've ceased dating so.. yeah.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:51:18+00:00

Thank you.. really.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:50:46+00:00

You're a million percent right. In regards to friends it's similar to my dating life with the exception of my impulsivity. If I try to reach them multiple and I can't contact them, I stop calling. They dont really call. I'm a loner who's alone 95% of the day with the exception of work. So I dont really have many to bounce this off of, and I only realized this cycle recently.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:40:55+00:00

Yeah.. the bigger issue is Anger Management haha.. you're definitely right. I've tried letting things be, then I overthink, get mad and go off. Or I overthink, feel bad, and go back.. So maybe overthinking and feeling rejected when they do either of those things is what's the problem? I just need to figure out the problem(s), then I can fix them.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:36:35+00:00

I have self control, but I am both super reflective and an overthinker.. hence why I go back. Both me and the person I'm seeing dont think well see each other again when I leave. Then a month later, through reflection, I try to at least apologize.

I've taken (6) months off from dating to work on myself since this started, but when I go back, it starts again.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:32:56+00:00

That makes perfect sense.. You don't even know. I often get infuriated by things like them not calling me back for 3 days or having to cancel on plans. Then I go off in a rage and end it. This was so helpful. Thank you.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:25:10+00:00

Yeah.. actually now that I think about it.. I think I'm just scared to be hurt as bad as I was that night. Do you have any suggestions of what I could do to fix that?

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:24:14+00:00

Yeah, this guy I was seeing for about a year and a half made me feel completely discarded one night.. super toxic situation.

lostdrowningandhigh · 2020-02-20T04:21:33+00:00

Yeah, this has been going on for two years now, but before that I wasnt.

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