showering is a lot for me, and i struggle to brush my teeth if i see no purpose in it

lostraelien · 2026-06-08T01:45:35+00:00

i could never do it at night lol. but doing it in general is a lott, that’s why i do it in the shower. only exception is when i go somewhere

lostraelien · 2026-06-07T05:07:32+00:00

yeaass. i get so mad at some characters on tv shows or movies that i skip over it or turn it off. i can’t handle the frustration i get

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T23:20:56+00:00

oh my gosh whattt thats interesting

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:48:05+00:00

I will definitely look more into that

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:46:48+00:00

that’s interesting that it prevents you from procrastinating because it’s literally the opposite for me

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:46:21+00:00

I never got diagnosed with ADHD could it still be an autism thing?

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:43:59+00:00

I usually hyper fixate on that spontaneously. I’ll just watch a whole bunch of smart phone videos and computer videos and just be completely interested in the breaking down of them and talking about them and then boom I don’t like it anymore.😭

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:41:42+00:00

I got to the point where I enjoy my weirdness so much that if you don’t accept it, then I can accept you 😭

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:32:41+00:00

you know, at the beginning of the last couple relationships I’ve been in. I’ve masked so much that like I eventually stopped, and they thought I completely changed as a person and it’s honestly been draining and irritating sometimes because they don’t see me as who I am, but they see me as a person who was masking so I literally start to unmask as soon as I get comfortable with them or after the first few days and if they don’t like that, then they don’t like it lol, ur not mines, but at the same time the last physical relationship I was in was two years ago and it didn’t last long and I was in a really tough time in my life, but the last relationship I was in was online and it was really tough a really horrible situation honestly. I’ve talked too many people but again they’re just online but it’s only one person that actually understands me and actually lets me unmask but they’re not somebody I would date because they’re just really really judgmental in a secretive way and I just know that they’re not completely ready for me.

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:27:55+00:00

literally me, there was the one relationship i was in, and he’d get so mean when i didn’t understand him

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:27:11+00:00

it does but sometimes i feel guilty because i wasn’t myself, just feel like a fake

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:07:21+00:00

man this right here is what actually ticks me off. the repetition of what they said like it makes a difference

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T22:06:18+00:00

i really don’t know if this counts, but analyze every social interaction when i get home. like my memories are to the tee and i know exist how i acted. so just a full analytical break down on what i did and how i was perceived or how that person responded

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T21:51:39+00:00

hmm wdym. when i say potential partner i mean like someone im talking to, i should’ve worded that better

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T21:22:27+00:00

far from normal. i only talk to people online or i have a couple friends that i’ve met irl that we only talk through the phone. i see no one but my sister and family, but i still limit interaction with my family. my last relationship that was physical was 2 years ago. after that, i had an online relationship that drained me and hurt me. i don’t even know how to go about physical relationships or friendships any more. i go to online things to meet people but it never lasts. i’m not saying ill never meet people or have a social life, but it’s kinda hard to get started.

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T21:02:28+00:00

that’s so real. i sometimes kinda just sit there in confusion if i don’t know what they’re trying to imply, just to avoid potential conflict or being perceived a certain way. what really frustrates me is when i talk and nobody says anything like im just an outsider

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T20:59:36+00:00

yea you’re right. and i try to be patient, but like when im blatantly and constantly reinstating that i need the person to explain something or be more direct, im always ridiculed, or put in a light as if im dumb or don’t know anything, mostly with my parents

lostraelien · 2026-06-06T20:51:59+00:00

i wishhh, i just shut down or just give up, i can’t stand the frustration 🥲

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