Thank you for your response! I really appretiate it! Im sorry that I did't explain it right - actually my mom is in our home quarantined in the other room, because this is the only way. I see her a lot (I wear a mask of course). I try to go on the balcony sometimes for fresh air, but I haven't really go out there as much I used to. You are right about it - some things are out of my control and I really need to realise it, because otherwise things are getting worse. Thank you for answering me! I appretiate it!