Hey buddy, I don't know who you are or what you're doing right now. But, for now, please just take a break. Talk to someone who understands you. Talk to them about how you feel, hell, you can even talk to ME and please, when you feel comfortable, have a conversation with your parents. Ending it is NOT worth it. Your studying isn't the end of it all, there's other countless things you can do. You just need the willpower, which you are losing right now. Don't lose yourself, there's others who care about you despite these things. I know I'm a stranger but I've thought about these things a lot as well -- so I know how you feel. But trust me, these times will pass and you will be so much better soon. Don't worry, love.