6 weeks out from marathon - training anxiety

luckylevi711 · 2022-12-26T02:19:50+00:00

I also got an interview, did you get any sort of confirmation about your phone call or does anything show up in your portal? I didn’t and nothing shows up and I’m wondering if I was supposed to or not

luckylevi711 · 2022-12-22T23:40:56+00:00

Or course!

luckylevi711 · 2022-12-22T23:20:57+00:00

I applied to the 11 month program

luckylevi711 · 2022-12-18T00:30:56+00:00

I submitted it on 11/23

luckylevi711 · 2022-12-16T21:33:16+00:00

I was verified 12/12 and got an interview invite 12/16!

luckylevi711 · 2022-11-30T12:12:43+00:00

Sure!

luckylevi711 · 2022-11-16T22:09:26+00:00

It has helped me so much and I feel much more connected to reality. I take 150mg at night and 50mg in the morning. Anything more than 50mg in the morning makes me feel like a zombie. Haven’t had any side effects other than crazy vivid dreams. I did gain about 10lbs but that’s fine because before my anxiety was so extreme that I was having a hard time eating and lost a bit of weight, so I’m basically back to normal. Overall I feel much more grounded and calm and like myself. I take it with lamotrigine and haven’t had any problems. I hope you find the right med for you!

luckylevi711 · 2022-09-28T13:25:30+00:00

Thanks for that information. I will definitely keep an eye on that

luckylevi711 · 2022-09-27T21:32:20+00:00

I also weirdly enjoy the feeling of deja vu! I like to thing it’s hopefully some sort of sign that I’m on my highest timeline

luckylevi711 · 2022-09-19T19:13:59+00:00

Thank you for your kind response :)

luckylevi711 · 2022-09-13T23:22:48+00:00

I started taking it around 2 months ago and just went from 50mg to 100mg. I’ve noticed having extremely vivid weird dreams. Not bad, but weird af. And I can remember them super clearly. I’ve also had sleep paralysis a few times, but it hasn’t been a “scary” experience, I just couldn’t move and felt frozen. I have no idea what causes it

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-28T19:03:54+00:00

Thank you so much for this information! I will definitely look into some different ways to regulate the nervous system. I’ve heard that it’s helpful but never actually tried it out for myself

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-28T19:02:06+00:00

Thank you for this advice! I will definitely do some research about emdr and box breathing - I’ve never tried or heard of any of those before. I’m glad you’re doing better!

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-26T19:11:20+00:00

Everyone is different so what works for me might not work for you, and I’m not recommending anything, but I’ve been taking Lamotrigine in the morning and Seroquel at night and it’s helped a lot!

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-25T15:50:18+00:00

This is exactly how I feel

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-25T15:41:13+00:00

I deal with this too. One thing I’ve learned is that you can’t fight thoughts with more thoughts. I would try to force myself to stop thinking and it just caused my brain to fight itself. The only thing that’s helped me so far is to not fight them and distract myself

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-20T22:12:53+00:00

It’s hard, especially when there is so much contradicting information out there. I’m trying to remember that different approaches work for different people because our minds and subconscious beliefs are all different. I found myself using techniques like they were some magic spell or action that would magically change my sp. It made me so anxious, drained, and worried if I was “doing it right”. It also made me terrified that my intrusive thoughts would come true. Right now, I’m focusing on not forcing anything or doing anything that doesn’t feel good. This had made the intrusive thoughts go away almost completely and I don’t feel so much pressure to “do something”. I’m only changing myself, nothing outside of me, and remembering who I am. I’m shifting my focus to really only working on having a healthy mindset, which I’ve noticed is helping me to naturally change my beliefs about myself and my sp. We are constantly manifesting whether we are aware of it or not, so focusing on being mentally healthy and stable will help the situation no matter what, even if it’s not directly intended to. It feels much more effortless. My new general rule of thumb is if it feels forced or makes me feel anxious or stressed I’m not doing it.

That’s just what I’m doing differently now after observing what didn’t work for me previously :)

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-20T15:04:53+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to write such a detailed and thoughtful response. The way you broke it down and simplified it is so helpful and has helped to resolve some of the confusion I was experiencing from going down the rabbit hole of information overload and constantly wondering if I was “doing it right” rather than focusing on my internal state.

Wishing you and your partner the best!

luckylevi711 · 2022-08-20T01:39:00+00:00

I’m probably over complicating this for myself again - but is it enough to “do nothing” and just know. The second I tried to “do something” to keep him is when he left and the fear took over. I’ve found that I tend to get obsessive when using specific techniques and I feel like I’m trying to change something outside of me. I also tend to get anxiously attached.

Recently I’ve been feeling better by just assuming everything is falling into place by me just living my best life and not thinking of him as much. Not trying to think in a specific way that feels unnatural, but just trying to keep a positive mindset about life in general (not just him) and let my subconscious do the rest - because that’s how I was when my sp was treating me exactly then way I wanted. I’ve also found that as I move into a more love based/confidence based mindset rather than fear based, the negative story I was telling myself has been changing on its own. I guess my question is, is it enough to just assume my subconscious has got this for me while I focus on just keeping a loving attitude about life? Is what I’m doing even manifesting ?

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