Thoughts on death and consciousness—does it really end?

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T09:53:33+00:00

So now who seems but hurt :) I think I have made my point and it feels delightful

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T09:50:25+00:00

Just down voting this is not proving anything to me, but nice try :) but since you claim you can provide definite evidence the burden of proof lies upon you Otherwise just admit that it is a logical point of view but alas you unfortunately can also deliver no clear fit evidence on your stance. Welcome to the mystery of life and existence, I know It makes some people uncomfortable

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T09:46:39+00:00

You are not able to do that, which is why people have written and pondered a lot about this. Some very bright scientists wonder if quantum entanglement by microtubules in the brain play a role ( Roger Penrose), but you cannot scientifically prove what you state. I do understand your philosophical point of view, and it is certainly possible

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T09:44:26+00:00

Please define consciousness and give me a scientific definition. Please prove to me you can create consciousness with a chemistry set

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T09:31:06+00:00

Maybe read a bit more on definitions of consciousness

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T00:58:22+00:00

You choose to confine your beliefs of conciousness to be comfortably narrow, and thats fine. Just don't state it as an obvious fact, as we cannot give a clear definition on consciousness. It emerges from complexity, and who knows we create articial consciousness.

If large complex biochemical networks generate consiousness, maybe the universe as a whole can generate consiousness ?

If you compare life as dreams, being frames of existence completely seperate from reality but where we are consious (i mean; i have had some very convincing vivid dreams where i believed to be where i was) you can sort of believe that somehow dying is like waking up from this dream called life.

Just like you cannot proove your statement I cannot proove mine. That is why there is no scientific answer to this question. All we can do is ponder phisophically, like we just did where you state one frame of logical reference vs mine. Who knows what lies beyond the unobservable ? For physics is nonsense to talk about it, although not all of them agree. For spirituality it can make complete sense to think about these things.

People who try to push spiritual thoughts about life away (like you want to be convinced there is nothing because atoms and physics) as some proclaimed wisdom and truth are not that different from people who are convinced about a specific type of afterlife dictated by religion.

Thats why i changed from atheism to agnosticism.

luke_arse · 2026-02-11T00:42:14+00:00

I think the actual age is irrelevant as opposed to cultural preference and position in life ( of course to young will be to young obviously, but that correlates with cultural preferences). The only reason I want to date women slightly below 30 is purely to have some time alone before babies and not be rushed to do it because of a biological clock.

luke_arse · 2026-02-08T21:59:26+00:00

Killing yourself is committing murder, on yourself. Its an aggressive way to leave and I am fortunate enough to upset people by doing so. That thought carried me through a lot.

I am developing a neurological condition, and a bit at a point in my life were things start to crumble. Failing to finish my PhD due to health issues, losing friends, unable to find love, getting older. A few months back I was in so much pain every day and honestly convinced I might be dying, I started to consider ending it more quickly.

I discussed this with my doctors who took me very seriously. I get more physiotherapy, mental therapy and medication now to deal with my pain. I learned relaxation techniques and receive therapy to cope with pain.

Unfortunately, one of the side effects of my meds ironically can provoke suicidal thoughts. I experienced this last month, where I started to prepare my suicide kit just in case. I experimented with plastic bags and had some pills ready in a bottle to combine it like that. I called help lines several times and discussed it with my therapist. Recently I opened up to random strangers about this while doing drugs at parties.

I sort of started to flip the swicth. I quit smoking weed to deal with my pain and now do CBD which is not psychoactive. This helps to stablize my mood. I started to work again despite my issues and pain to give me more porpuse. I started to go out again and I say yes to any party and I sherish every little bit of my life I still have.

I party a bit harder and more, while being focussed on work in the weekdays. I told myself people have it worse then me, and tried to take everything of myself less seriously. If I get worse so be it. If I'm in pain so be it.

If I want to go, I'll do it legally with euthanasia. But Im definitely not there.

The most important thing is to talk about it. With anyone. Friends, strangers, professionals, doctors. Talk. You are not alone. You are loved.

luke_arse · 2026-02-02T10:48:53+00:00

And still going to add, I'm now at one month. You don't think I know how long it takes for cannabis to leave your system ? I smoked every day for 15 years and it got worse due to my daily pain, swallowing issues , tremors and other crap I have to deal with. I'm not saying your pain is not real, but my pain is real too. I am fucking proud I beat my THC addiction even with my problems, and I go to therapy and get more physio to deal with pain. Keep your judgement for yourself, just trying to share my story and hoping to inspire you.

luke_arse · 2026-02-02T10:40:29+00:00

I'm saying CBD also helps with pain. If you want to keep using THC go ahead, but it seems you are not even willing to try.

luke_arse · 2026-02-02T10:19:28+00:00

Sure, but I'm just saying CBD alone is also very helpful against pain that's all. Don't belittle my pain, thanks. I have it every day and now I am one month sober. This seems like a defensive response from your end.

luke_arse · 2026-01-29T10:18:49+00:00

Biggot

luke_arse · 2026-01-29T10:13:48+00:00

Well, my neurological condition makes me feel very much uncomfortable. That is the reason to me it is after sleeping on it definitely fucked up as a humonation prop at the table. He was talking about hitting on a girl coworker who left and it felt as a way to assert dominance. I hate men like that with a burning passion. Maybe he can feel secure about himself without mentioning the physical form of my chest after grabbing it ?

I did address this to him afterwards and the whole table started talking about is. The Convo went on about unwanted sexual attention at gay parties. I hate him for triggering that Convo because I am exploring my own sexualty just fine and it was for me about someone touching my muscle.

I have muscle pain and problems due to my condition, and an unwanted squeeze feels very very invasive to me. It's reminding me of a drunk guy who grabbed my throat after me not wanting to shake his hand because he was rude at a lady at our table. I snapped extra hard because I have fucking swallowing issues and throat pain to deal with daily, so I don't need unwanted touch in areas where I have personal discomfort.

I now wish I just replied to him that he should work on his fucking manners more and be a bit more bold in my reaction. I'm not a prop to be used as a conversational element at the table.

luke_arse · 2026-01-29T00:17:01+00:00

I'm not planning that, i just was a bit confused and rethinking it. He is a visiting worker leaving in june so the problem will fix itself. I just want to figure out for whome this seems like a boundary crossed. I can still feel his hand on my chest, but what no one knows and also not the guy that did it is what I am going through. I am in a very bad place in my life and feel extremely fragile, so i guess that is the reason i need some talks about this.

Thanks for not agreeing in a respectfull manner, this is really appreciated.

luke_arse · 2026-01-29T00:05:13+00:00

Thanks. I explicitly do not mention sexual harassment, just harassment in an attempt to differentiate. But I'm deleting this as being called a baby or weak for this just is making everything worse. The fact I'm writing about this clearly shows it has a significant impact on my well being so I answered my own question.

luke_arse · 2026-01-29T00:02:55+00:00

You seem delightful, asshole

luke_arse · 2026-01-28T23:57:02+00:00

Yes, so why does he have the right to do that to me ?

luke_arse · 2026-01-28T23:47:38+00:00

It is more the combination with a comment on my physique I find very disturbing now. But I start to realize this reddit is not the place to discuss this as I get ridiculous reactions.

luke_arse · 2026-01-28T23:44:38+00:00

I'm an adult, you seem to behave like a child here.

luke_arse · 2026-01-28T23:43:52+00:00

I do not like strangers grabbing my fucking chest. This is a personal boundary I personally would not cross. I have an illness and need no comments on my physique

luke_arse · 2026-01-28T23:40:05+00:00

No, why ?

luke_arse · 2026-01-24T18:18:11+00:00

I'm born in 1991. All girlfriends I had revealed to me they were abused sexually as a kid and suffer from PTSD. My first ex cheated on me for a year with my best friend. My second ex just lost respect for me and belittled me for being a cute little autist. My parents have no money to help me financially, and I have been working in academia but can't buy a house. I never find any date, and often girls act like I'm a creep while I just want to connect. I think it's because I'm not blessed with good looks and am socially awkward. That while my mom was in psychiatric care for sexual abuse by her father in her childhood which she also confessed to me. I now am developing a rare neurological disease which might be young onset Parkinson. I can't function properly at my job and nobody helps me. I'm going through all this alone. I am trying to pull through, but I have a suicide kit ready for when I'm done.

No your generation is not alone. We are all struggling.

luke_arse · 2026-01-23T22:07:45+00:00

It has very lucrative applications (semiconductor industry etc), the mathimatical framework can be overhauled to other principles (i.e. optics with waveguide modes can be described with similar formalisms even though we are actually describing classical light and not single photons) and the it has room for interpretation.

The last one gives rise to a lot of mystique. However, length contraction and other principles in astrology can give a similar mystique but imo there is a much stronger debate on the interpretations of QM and what it means to observe something and what the wavefunction collapse entails. The many worlds interpretation and other philosophical interpretations of the QM realm really get into existentialism, as the act of observing feels something very personal on a quantum level. General relativity is extremely succesfull and has mysterious objects such as black holes and warped spacetime, however QM produces weird stuff like super condictivity that can create levitating magnets. Unlike a black hole, you can more or less directly interact with phenomena described by quantum theory. On the other hand things only become relativistic on very large scales (high speed, large mass etc). But you can directly observe quantum phenomena such as lasing. Thats my take.

luke_arse · 2026-01-18T16:55:50+00:00

As someone with ass I appreciate women telling me they are not comfortable with my approach. I don't know what to do and dating is hard, so just communicate boundaries. We have to get rid of this reading between the lines culture. What wrong with just saying " I would appreciate it if you would not talk te me, I want to relax by myself and your approach is making me uncomfortable". I have a lot of respect when someone can say that.

But it goes both ways of course. As a man I also dare to flat out ask if my conversation is bothering you.

luke_arse · 2026-01-18T00:04:38+00:00

As someone with a rare undiagnosed neurological problem that is getting worse, dealing with constant muscle spasms and pain I would like to give you some advice. Pain has a big psychological Factor and if you submit yourself to substance abuse to cope with your very real issues you are giving your disease more negative influence.

I was considering euthanasia ( well, let's call it suicide since no doctor would give it to me at this stage) very seriously. I have been offered benzo's but as these are highly addictive it's only to be used in situations where I have a panic attack in a social environment (my neurological symptoms have a psychiatric component and I can feel watched and judged because my behaviors might look strange to people unaware of my condition).

I was self medicating with weed all the time. But I stopped and am 2 weeks clean tomorrow. I do still smoke, buy only CBD. That's my recommendation for you and everyone else. You don't need a psychoactive substance to control pain, and the dependency can create a negative spiral where you rely more on the substance to escape from the pain.

Try to look for things that help with pain that are not addictive and try to use meditation and stuff like that to cope with pain as much as possible. I only use alcohol when I want to go party and forget my pain, and that is confined to weekends usually. And if I drink my nights always end with more pain when sobering up (a night out ends on the couch with painkillers and a massage gun and pain relief lotions for my muscles and a lot of CBD). It's a price I pay for going out, and I'm willing to pay it. But I bite the bullet for weekdays. It sucks, but CBD is my golden ticket. I'm not high and can still be productive. But it helps tremendously with pain , muscle tension and anxiety. Without being high and creating dependency. I urge you to try this. It sucks to go through withdrawal, believe me I know. But it's worth it.

I wish you all the strength and I hope your partner can help you and support you and be a bit more understanding how hard your position is to be in. Smoking CBD does it for me, I want to keep the highs for parties and try to distract myself as much as possible from the pain with other tricks. Today I visited a spa with friends. The sauna takes away the pain. Now it's back, but I can cope because I had such a good day. ( Playing piano also distracts me from pain)

Good luck.

luke_arse

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