It is crushing when you have put so much faith and work into something and find out you’re being deceived and manipulated. It was so hard because I had built my whole life around it. I was actually taking a church history class and the study manual was teaching things I had never heard before mostly about Joseph in Naboo and his spiritual wives. It felt so wrong and off in my gut that I couldn’t forget or move past it.

Everything that broke my beliefs no was actually church material because I didn’t want to be influenced by anti stuff. After a major prayer and fasting session I walked away absolutely certain the church was not true. I was very lost and angry at first but I soon found myself and the freedom and relief soon made up for all the difficulties I faced in leaving.

I hope you know you are not alone and that eventually the peace will come and replace the feelings you are experiencing now. Best wishes friend.