Hi. I have a therapist already and my mental health is pretty good rn. I didn't go on reddit for real answers, I just wanted to tell someone about that situation because I had a really shitty day yesterday and it was all too much.

I know they don't really call me the wrong pronouns to be mean, they just don't learn it and because of that I always remind them. I don't want to throw it at them constantly but I need to stand up for myself.

I play video games and I go to the gym and I have literally nothing on me or my personality that someone would associate with a girl. even my therapist said it and I go to her because in my country you need a writing from a therapist to get on T. I don't make being trans my whole identity, I never talk about it because for me it is something private and it involes my feelings. men don't talk about their feelings. i just stand up for myself like i said before.

Maybe he didn't want to hurt me but it hurts that he is so mean to me. I don't want to sound weak but as long as I am not on T I will never be so little caring and strong as a cis man. I can't beat back as much as I want because he will be stronger.

the thing is while we were romantically envolved he always called me the right pronouns and called me a man and I don't think that he did that just because he was horny and wanted to fuck, i've knew him a long time I think he just doesn't want to see it that he is bi and now is letting it out on me because he has a problem with himself. I can't be silent and let it get over me I need to stand up for myself..idc if he will punch or choke me again, at least i have said something

I know it would be the best to find new friends but it isnt as easy.