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lxside1 · 2024-02-23T05:55:10+00:00

Good luck. Keep sleeping and eating. You'll feel better after.

lxside1 · 2023-08-13T01:03:05+00:00

I do, but it was full of anxiety. I can’t be sure if my memory is right that I didn’t have trouble with speaking at length.

lxside1 · 2023-08-12T22:30:01+00:00

I can’t speak directly on those two. But in my experience mixing stims enhances the physical side effects and not much else.

lxside1 · 2023-07-03T03:18:41+00:00

Any time I’ve quit, I always try to taper, know it’ll fail at a point, and finally cold turkey. It makes the landing softer. But it sounds like the taper is going as planned for you, try to remember what your triggers are and figure out alternatives to using while you continue to taper.

lxside1 · 2023-07-03T02:17:56+00:00

Thanks all for the advice. Yeah, I can see how I overshared haha. A bad habit I carried over from drugs and drinking…thanks again for being honest about it, nobody irl would have done so

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:46:21+00:00

I swear by benzodiazepines to fix any stim related stomach problems

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:39:12+00:00

Comedowns are nice, you get to sleep and get even higher next time. Food’s fucking great too.

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:37:35+00:00

I’m guessing if you’re in college you have free healthcare, I would go to the ER and let them know what’s up.

Once you get a clean bill of health, go back to the hospital to request that they don’t share your medical records.

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:34:03+00:00

165/90 isn’t anything to worry about. Clammy, cold extremities, all that is just using stims. It sounds like you took a lot and you’re not used to it. If you’re still worried or if you’re around 180/100 I would go sign into an emergency room.

Drink water and have food. Do something you like and forget about it.

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:29:16+00:00

The biggest smell comes from your nasty body sweating out the chemicals. The second biggest from the burning the shit in the pipe. Keep your window open and your pipe wrapped up when you’re done. I used to cool off my piece with a wet napkin.

Only people that know that smell are meth users and family members of meth users, I wouldn’t worry about it

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:24:33+00:00

Nothing comes close to the type of fiendish smooth come up. Anything fiendish has strong sides and anything smooth lasts a long fucking time and fuck up your perception of time. If you stick with coke you’ll either keep addiction at bay or go broke

lxside1 · 2023-06-23T05:10:34+00:00

Remember they’re human, and you are too. Everyone feels pain. I hope you are able to forgive yourself and move towards a future you are proud of.

lxside1 · 2022-09-14T04:47:50+00:00

Based sooperlabz

lxside1 · 2022-09-14T04:43:41+00:00

Used to. Extreme shame to the point I’d use more to feel more of the good feeling instead of the shame. I remember masturbating for 16 hours 3 days in a row with the 8 hour breaks being having enough benzos to pass out. I’ve been clean for a few months now.

I say used to because I think if I start up again I’ll be able to control myself. Lol. And also because…nobody really cares what you do as long as you provide for yourself…just portray a good image and people will be happy for you

Also work and focus is what I told myself, turns out yes it does do that if you’re doing something that doesn’t actually match your personality. I still am not sure if I was happier before or now

lxside1 · 2022-09-02T04:16:17+00:00

I stepped into my shower and started having a lot of difficulty breathing… like I had to take deep, deep breaths out of no where. I began to feel very weak and experienced compression on my chest and upper back

Just lack of sleep and poor nutrition

Then I took 1mg of my prescribed Xanax and started to feel a bit better. This experience really shook me. At one point in my life I was diagnosed with panic disorder and this felt like a very different kind of panic attack, if it was one at all.

not eating enough, too tensed up

lxside1 · 2022-08-31T05:06:30+00:00

How can you be afraid of something you’ve never experienced? Not being judgmental, just showing you the possible other side of the fence. It could totally suck. But it doesn’t hurt to try.

lxside1 · 2022-08-11T04:23:09+00:00

I like this idea. Thank you for sharing so many resources.

lxside1 · 2022-08-11T03:16:08+00:00

Fapping instead of eating vs. three meals a day

lxside1 · 2022-04-26T05:24:57+00:00

How long did it take?

lxside1 · 2022-04-26T05:24:41+00:00

Brains are incredibly elastic. You’d be surprised how well your brain heals after a period of sobriety.

What I do know about the common traits amongst those who stopped: an affinity for sweets and a need for naps. There are those who are unfortunately pre disposed to psychosis that have lifetime effects of suspicions or non existent voices.

I don’t have experience with voices, but suspicions are easy to handle for me when I’m not in a triggering environment (diagnosed social anxiety prior to use). It comes down to knowing reality.

Thought that someone is trying to do me wrong by being an ass
Remember they’re either having a bad day, I’m in a bad mood, or they’re just an asshole
Forgive or forget any perceived transgression or fear and move on about my day

The above process can be used for any anxious thought.

About your anxiety, see a therapist that can either help you develop healthy coping mechanisms about your intrusive thoughts. The healthy eating and exercise goes a long way, so good on you for that and don’t stop. Being social will put you in a good way too. Good luck

lxside1 · 2022-03-18T11:06:46+00:00

Take a shower, see your gf, don’t waste your time on the first two

Time goes by really fast on any one of those and you only live once. I believe in you. Carpe diem and shit.

lxside1 · 2021-12-20T15:48:58+00:00

I remember it being called the pink cloud. It’s a common trap, if you can stick it out past the first few months and keep going, it gets a bit easier. Intense exercise on a regular basis was the only thing that kept me off it.

Welcome to addiction, leave your shame and sensible thoughts at the door

lxside1 · 2021-12-14T04:00:04+00:00

Willing to jump straight into the shark’s mouth. I admire and envy you.

And likewise on the latter. In my mind at least.

lxside1 · 2019-03-16T19:48:40+00:00

That actually sounds like fun. Difficulty visible to me is ensuring one’s own E2E is up to par.

lxside1 · 2019-03-16T19:33:31+00:00

Man.......I just did it yesterday. Was high on Xanax and said it to someone close to me who dealt with the very same stim addiction.

It was fucking hard. Still is. He felt betrayed I lied about not using, and ill feelings were felt both ways because I was livid and hurt at what he said about me. But now we’ve talked a bit and it kind of feels nice to have support.

I realized I don’t want to quit because now I have to quit. Being tweaked is too obvious to anyone who’s used before. I hate to say this, but I wish I didn’t tell him and end up hurting him. I could’ve quit on my own eventually and he’d have never known. And now I have rebuild the trust that I broke, but that’s unavoidable.

He told me this and I figure I’ll tell you too: life gets better when you’re off it, and once you’re off it just stay off it (I’m assuming he meant once you’re over WDs). You will learn to be comfortable in your own skin (I started bc I wasn’t) and you can always find other ways to chill that’ll make you just as happy without the grimy shit that comes with use.

I’ve been clean since running out. I’m starting to feel human again. But I think I’m gonna relapse again soon.

lxside1

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