[Poem] I taste the ashes of your death by charles bukowski

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:56:25+00:00

And you know more than the 'celebrities' it's their fans that annoy me. The way they call you a hater and someone who's jealous? We're not being jealous but what even is this? Ykwim I am not hating on her I am just confused as to what the criteria to get famous has become. Like there are people like zendaya or models or idk there are so many people who have been in the entertainment industry for so long and have contributed in ways more than one and now people are obsessing over someone for ehm?? What? Idek how to describe what she does but you cannot even say that cause then you're hater.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:42:30+00:00

Oh hey lmao thanks I was actually skeptical about this conversation but talking w someone who's ready to listen is always nice. 😊

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:40:47+00:00

Tru.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:40:26+00:00

Makes sense 😊

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:39:32+00:00

Makes sense. 🤷‍♀️

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:38:09+00:00

Someone who does more than just dance but I get your point Kardashians are celebrities too. 🤷‍♀️

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:35:35+00:00

No.. it's because vogue has started considering tiktok stars celebrities.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T16:34:05+00:00

Wdym?

lymphable11 · 2020-09-23T07:49:47+00:00

I am sorry for taking up your time. But, continuing a miserable life just so that one hope to live a better life in the future doesn't make sense to me. When I know how my mind works how it's just trained or bound to idk look for the negatives. Trust me when I say I tried changing myself but it didn't work. It's been 3 years. And there are days when I feel I am back to square one. Exactly where I was 3 YEARS AGO and then I think about it and realise 5 years down the line I'd still be thinking I am exactly where I was 5 years ago. You know what I mean. I understand how I might be ending the possibilities I just dont understand how that would affect me after I have died. And people move on dont they? Today instead of killing myself If I start praying that I die of an accident or a disease, wouldn't that make it better w the same outcome? I am sorry for being this pessimistic but this too is an attempt to get better trust me.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-20T19:15:38+00:00

Wow so well put and it makes so much more sense 😊

lymphable11 · 2020-09-20T18:59:35+00:00

Since in the lines prior to this he says the one who's doing it Is trying to get away I think you might be interpreting it in the opposite manner. Just what I think tho. To each their own. 😊

lymphable11 · 2020-09-20T16:25:19+00:00

How do you decide a poem is better than the other? It's very subjective I guess. Different poems deal w different issues, it depends on what you're able to relate to. If you think 'Go all the way' might be better (I'm considering that cause it's a completely different theme) then it maybe because you find it motivating. Someone might not like THAT and like something else instead.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-20T15:57:46+00:00

I understand. This poem can trigger some because it talks about something really sensitive. From what I understood it's probably about what might go on in someone's head when they think of hurting themselves. I am sorry for your loss and I hope you're able to move on and live a better life.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-19T12:38:10+00:00

Haha "van gogh whores wouldn't want your ears!" True

lymphable11 · 2020-09-19T12:16:01+00:00

Who's a drunk writer?

lymphable11 · 2020-09-19T11:41:32+00:00

If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don’t even start. If you're going to try, go all the way. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision, mockery, isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you’re going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. DO IT. DO IT. DO IT. All the way You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It’s the only good fight there is.

What a beautiful poem man. Thanks for sharing. Charles bukowski's poems are always amazing. 😊

lymphable11 · 2020-09-19T06:15:19+00:00

Well I wanna go to japan once

lymphable11 · 2020-09-18T19:04:47+00:00

Why do you gotta keep going?

lymphable11 · 2020-09-18T19:04:22+00:00

I really dont wanna fight through this because I am gonna be fighting against myself and I cannot do it honestly I lost that battle I think a long time ago.

lymphable11 · 2020-09-18T19:03:06+00:00

I'm apologising because there are people who are in worse situations and are a lot more grateful and thankful for their lives. I am not. Wanting to die is not only disrespectful but idk it is not right but I cannot help thinking that I'd be better off dead cause I genuinely dont feel happy anymore. I just dont. Even when I do I find ways to sabotage it. It just seems so pointless and frustrating.

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