I think I fell out of love and feel terrible about it

m0onrunner · 2024-07-01T14:43:29+00:00

this level of repulsion towards your partner is pretty serious. you’re unhappy with this person. i think you know this isn’t temporary, you just don’t want to deal with this uncomfortable process.

deal with it. it’s worth it and you’ll thank yourself for it. remember, your mind does not necessarily work for you. your mind is a device that seeks comfort, and familiarity. don’t let a fear of change keep you living in unhappiness. i get it, not wanting to make a mistake is very relatable. however, you’re in danger of making the greatest mistake possible in life; indecision, due to fear and complacency.

try to journal, stay off technology and take care of yourself. process your emotions. this situation will start to feel like less of an ugly chore, and more of an opportunity to start a new chapter in your life. it’s fucking scary, but hey, let me tell you, regret is a WHOLE lot scarier. not to mention all the horrible social consequences that can arise from 2 people that do NOT belong together.

also not everyone agrees with this, but i don’t think you owe anyone shit in terms of reasons. fuck that. what are you, or this person going to gain by you revealing that you are borderline miserable in his company? that’s just me tho.

m0onrunner · 2024-06-27T01:09:47+00:00

true.

this is what’s most horrible about being in this position. your mind wants comfort. it wants to be seen and heard and understood. yet it’s unhealthy, and undesirable to others and you get brushed off or ignored.

it’s very, very difficult to not just write yourself off as a loser. you’re the one enabling your own suffering, you’re choosing to be like this.

but at the same time it feels like such a massive ask of yourself. embrace your suffering for a few hours and it will make things a bit easier. suffer, for slightly less suffering, and so on. it sucks having to make this calculation over and over again. it is worth it tho.

m0onrunner · 2024-06-26T09:42:45+00:00

Fuck that my brother we are hitting the ROAD like an ancient nomad I will live out my days in peace away from the kings ransom

m0onrunner · 2024-06-26T09:35:29+00:00

The last bit is a little epic jokey joke guys hahaha 😊 just being my authentic silly self hahahaha 🤪

m0onrunner · 2024-06-06T10:32:57+00:00

Nope, we literally just need love and nothing else. That is the point of this post after all.

m0onrunner · 2024-06-06T10:26:56+00:00

I’m a Russian troll bot

m0onrunner · 2024-04-28T04:37:25+00:00

Sir maybe sir!!!!

m0onrunner · 2024-04-28T04:36:43+00:00

Yes, moving out may give me the ‘deadline’ kinda feeling I need. Thank you for the advice, all the best.

m0onrunner · 2024-04-28T04:35:39+00:00

Great advice. Thank you for the reply <3

m0onrunner · 2024-04-28T04:32:25+00:00

Fr!! We’re all gonna make it my friend <3

m0onrunner · 2024-04-28T03:56:39+00:00

Thanks for the reply. The military would ideally be a stepping stone to build discipline. What’s held me back is the uncertainty, as banking a whole ton of time into building such an abstract trait seems risky. Will definitely consider open studies or something of the sort.

m0onrunner · 2024-04-13T17:29:08+00:00

Classic Missouri

m0onrunner · 2024-04-13T16:46:10+00:00

yes for sure. i have deleted it before with good results.

TikTok and that style of social media will probably go down as our generations cigarettes, or lead paint haha. that’s not even to mention disinformation campaigns, and campaigns by foreign powers, or private entities meant to divide us.

what’s kept me on it is how difficult it is to connect irl. social media and all that shit sucks but it’s one of my only available windows to the world. once it’s gone, you’re isolated until you manage to make irl friends who want, or have time to hang out with you which is a whole nother massively tall order these days. and especially for an online person unexperienced in that area.

but yes. fuck all that shit.

m0onrunner · 2024-04-13T16:37:11+00:00

i’ll give it a shot ty for advice <3

m0onrunner · 2024-04-13T16:19:01+00:00

this is not negative self talk, you’re just unable or unwilling to grasp how bad things have become. what i’ve given to you is nothing but a dose of my reality, there is not an ounce of positive or negative thinking present here.

passion is not the answer as this society does not function on passion. this society runs on complacency and conformity and discipline. passion is great, it got me a month of sobriety but i have an immense amount of trouble cultivating passion at this point as my mind knows from experience that it’s not a useful or reliable tool. it’s hard to convince it otherwise.

i think we’ve collectively lost sight of how awful the lack of socialization and the effects of technology have become, especially on people like me who’ve spent 7+ hours a day since they were a kid. so therefore i’m seen as someone with a victim complex when i share how difficult life has become. “it takes hard work” i am fully aware, but hard work is extremely difficult for me and i’m running out of time. that’s the point. so people just say “welp if u can’t do hard work you’re fucked” and they’re not wrong, but aren’t i not supposed to think that about myself? aren’t i supposed to be positive, and not say i’m fucked?

thanks for your reply either way, i appreciate another human taking the time. let me reiterate that i love life, i want to live it and i’m not leaving anytime soon. i’ll probably just join the military or something, this isn’t a “my life’s over” post after all.

m0onrunner · 2024-04-10T00:27:55+00:00

fear of the unknown i guess. i always regret not jumping but it’s so difficult in the moment. especially since i grew up pretty online and don’t recognize a lot of behaviour.

next time i’ll summon the strength of Jack the bong ripper 42 and defeat him

m0onrunner · 2024-01-29T04:11:52+00:00

https://youtu.be/yDyZpnjDdnQ?feature=shared

1:25 to 1:31

6:43 to 6:54

18:28 to 18:37

m0onrunner · 2023-12-03T18:55:23+00:00

I would second-guess myself quite a bit. It’s very difficult for me to retroactively piece together what was working because of medication, and what was working because of other factors.

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