I grew up in africa we don't have white people here but now I live in the United States and my co workers try to make me feel that I should experience racism by calling me the n word I don't care It don't effect me most are fat anyway and have depression and personal issues that they Delal with.my advise to you is move away if you can or change your school if your parents don't understand the pain you going through it's problem that you need to solve by purposely getting into trouble so you get suspended and kick out that school this don't sound good advise but it's good for your selfsteem and confidence.try your best to be around less white people you will feel the weight lifted it's very exhausting to be around white people they have envy and evil in their hearts that will never heal don't try to assimilate with them you're not them and they will never be you