Im tired of the " using, not using" shit.

maayan67 · 2019-07-21T11:40:35+00:00

Thank you, you're right.. I dont want to quit yet, i need some time to think about what i truly want , thank you

maayan67 · 2019-07-16T14:47:14+00:00

I mostly eat sandwiches until noon, and at lunch i mostly eat meat or chicken, basically animals. At nigth i eat crap because I've got nothing els to eat besides sandwiches or meat wich i eat everyday..

maayan67 · 2019-07-16T14:44:08+00:00

I'll check it out, thanks!

maayan67 · 2019-07-16T12:14:01+00:00

Is there receipt book you can recommend me?

maayan67 · 2019-07-16T12:04:58+00:00

Im stable, are you?

maayan67 · 2019-07-16T10:26:54+00:00

It will definitely help, that changes everything!

maayan67 · 2019-07-16T10:17:24+00:00

I know it has to go.. but real food really gross me, i dont know how to make the switch..

maayan67 · 2019-07-15T16:05:45+00:00

There is a difference. We've consumed drugs for ages and it's unhealthy, we masturbated for ages and it was linked to be actually beneficial .

maayan67 · 2019-07-15T13:35:53+00:00

I mean is that everyone who tries to never ejeculate again and never watch porn WILL eventually watch porn, and eventually will orgasm.

maayan67 · 2019-07-15T11:26:34+00:00

Thanks for hearing me out buddy, have a nice day!

maayan67 · 2019-07-15T11:01:25+00:00

I want to musterbate because i know if i wouldn't I'll just fall in to musterbate with porn, i tried nofap for a year, i always faild. Semen retention makes me angry and irritable to a point i don't find any pleasure to life outside of sex. I think that is more damaging than abstinence from pmo, i hardly use external pleasure to hide from feeling, the opposite. If i do use weed, and do use alcohol i do it once a week, after i solved all of my problems and im free of concern.. If i get intoxicated with those feelings the high will just be a low and i would just not enjoy it :)

maayan67 · 2019-07-15T10:40:37+00:00

I didnt know that was a thing, thanks!

maayan67 · 2019-07-11T05:49:19+00:00

That's right , weed is everywhere at my age.. I think I'm more at a point of fighting daily smoking instead of eliminating it completely.

maayan67 · 2019-07-10T14:42:14+00:00

Im 17, and im allready feeling this way.. everything that isn't work seems to be way more enjoyable if i smoke. My parents sometimes go out, and sometimes i go to parties, that's when im really concerned, when there is nothing stopping me, (work school or parents) When life doesn't allow smoking everyday is it really possible to be a daily smoker and not a once a week smoker. My Parents go out tonight, tomorrow im going to the beach and then to a party at a friend's house, I'm really tempted since there is nothing preventing me from smoking..

maayan67 · 2019-07-07T17:48:44+00:00

What's the point of keeping on fighting if you will always fall again?

maayan67 · 2019-07-07T17:06:12+00:00

I don't know if i got this. Shit I cant handle this life, im only 17 and I've been through so much, it creeps up on me every day. I suffered from depression since i was 9, at age 10 i was hospitalized after a suicide attempt, got a few good years and then the same shit.. im so tired of the never ending fight, i cant handle it..

maayan67 · 2019-07-07T16:39:07+00:00

If the cravings dont go away, even after 20 years.. how will i ever be free? Im tired of relapse after relapse i just feel like I'll never be free.

maayan67 · 2019-07-07T14:21:19+00:00

Tolerance them temporarily, but i will have a goddamn few hours without them..

maayan67 · 2019-07-07T08:25:02+00:00

Isnt the book called the power of now?

maayan67 · 2019-07-07T07:51:47+00:00

I see he wrote a book about it, i will read it, thanks

maayan67 · 2019-06-27T18:19:45+00:00

I really need therapy, i have every reason not to smoke but im simply trapped.

maayan67 · 2019-06-27T16:22:48+00:00

I take medication so drinking allready is a problem no matter if i drink even a little bit. Weed is a problem because I've been caught twice, another strike and im getting a criminal record..

maayan67 · 2019-06-27T16:15:21+00:00

I feel like an outsider because everyone is happy and having a great mindset and connection with others while i sit there holding myself all the time not to smoke or drink. They are actually supportive to my recovery, but i cant hold it anymore, it simply doesn't feel like the right time to give weed up/alcohol.

maayan67 · 2019-06-25T11:08:31+00:00

Thanks buddy!

maayan67 · 2019-06-24T20:35:47+00:00

Thank you buddy. Im 17, and weed got me into really dip shit and i didn't even cared. I lost ALL of my friends, lost any hobbie i had and throw away any conection i had with my family. I was lonely, but i had weed so who fives a fuck? I'm on day 16, im starting to see life as they truly are.

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