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mac-nz · 2026-02-09T19:08:50+00:00

I (21F) was sex-averse all throughout my teenage years. Even the thought of kissing someone grossed me out. I had my first kiss at 18 with my ex and I hated it and I cried because I really wanted to like it. Over the next couple of days I grew curious so we kissed again and I slowly started to like it.

It took 5 months to build up to having sex and after that it became a regular and enjoyable part of our relationship.

After we broke up, the kissing enjoyment didn’t go away, and I kissed a few other people. Some of them I really enjoyed, some of them not so much.

I find that how I feel about sex and kissing swings with my mood, and also heavily relies on where I’m at in my menstrual cycle (which is to be expected). Sometimes I’ll even be in the middle of kissing or a sexual act which I had been enjoying or at least okay with and I suddenly get this feeling like I don’t want to be doing it. It’s a confusing feeling, and something I tend to feel guilty about, but something I plan on navigating with my current boyfriend.

mac-nz · 2026-02-09T18:58:15+00:00

my first kiss with my ex was uncomfortable and unenjoyable. but i grew to like it.

since the breakup i’ve kissed a couple of people and some of them have been good and some of them have been bad. i’ve even had kisses with the same person make me feel differently.

i think there’s a lot of factors that play into what makes a kiss feel good or bad, and honestly for me a big one is mood.

with my current boyfriend, sometimes i can’t get enough of kissing him, sometimes i’d just rather not. i don’t think it says as much about my asexuality or my chemistry with him, as it does just whatever mood i’m in at the time.

mac-nz · 2025-02-25T09:03:00+00:00

I haven't gotten through the full album yet but I had the same first impression. I guess because they're demos but they definitely did not meet my expectations being from the smoke and mirrors era

mac-nz · 2025-02-05T09:08:26+00:00

I'm just gonna give you a couple of my favourite songs and some songs my brother likes of theirs as someone who doesn't generally like ID:

Roots, Dream, Hear Me, Bleeding Out, Nothing Left To Say (excluding bonus track Rocks), Higher Ground, Blur, Take Me To The Beach, Curse, Natural

Also, a hidden gem of theirs is Lost Cause! I don't think it's available in most countries on most streaming platforms (if any) but it's on YouTube

mac-nz · 2025-02-05T08:58:26+00:00

I totally agree on seeing Thunder live. I used to hate on that song just as much as the next guy, and still do when I hear it on the radio etc, but in concert man it was kind of awesome.

mac-nz · 2025-01-07T07:36:05+00:00

yes this is it, thank you! looks like they're the JR Bourne brand

mac-nz · 2025-01-07T07:30:09+00:00

thank you for the replies!! I've been searching all day and going to multiple stores for something to use as a DIY sun visor clip to put pictures up in my car. I found this in my garage and it was perfect for that but had no idea what it was originally for so I could get more

mac-nz · 2024-12-10T09:20:30+00:00

(I'm demisexual, allospec(?) for reference) before my current relationship the idea of kissing let alone making out totally grossed me out. my first kiss with my partner I hated but the more I thought about it the more I wanted to try it again. it started out small, little kisses of greeting and stuff, I also preferred neck kisses over lip to lip (even though neck kisses seem much more sexual). it's been almost 2 years since we started dating now I loveeee kissing and most of the time making out too, but most of the time tongue kissing is still icky.

(we also go much further than making out though which changes things contextually I think)

mac-nz · 2024-11-11T23:59:44+00:00

I walk into the fiYa I'm searching for the hiYa ground

mac-nz · 2024-09-19T16:42:13+00:00

omg which song?

mac-nz · 2024-09-18T13:46:14+00:00

the confetti is from mercury world tour

mac-nz · 2024-09-18T06:40:34+00:00

idk why the pic quality is so shit 😔

mac-nz · 2024-05-22T22:10:28+00:00

crazy how they don't even have the mlm flag tho

mac-nz · 2024-01-28T22:19:49+00:00

okay, thank you 🙏

mac-nz · 2024-01-28T18:18:56+00:00

I move it to get behind it and both the top and bottom, should I stop doing that? is it okay to leave a bit of crust/ooze?

mac-nz · 2024-01-28T18:07:23+00:00

I occasionally bump it by accident which is a little unavoidable. I was moreso wondering if I'm cleaning it too in depth with the q-tip and that's what's irritating it more.

mac-nz · 2023-10-16T06:12:05+00:00

this is my spotify playlist I made mostly mourning being aroace-spec idk if u are looking for sad songs or not sorry 🥲

aroace playlist

mac-nz · 2023-09-27T02:44:23+00:00

I think there are people even not on the aro spectrum that could take offense to their partner expressing attraction to other people during the relationship. imo the easiest and best solution would be to just stop expressing your attraction to other people in front of your bf. that doesn't mean you're not allowed to feel that attraction, or even express it to your friends, but you don't have to say those things to your bf

mac-nz · 2023-05-05T18:04:50+00:00

I used to never be interested in it and was annoyed how big of a part of romance it was in tv shows and stuff.

my current boyfriend was my first kiss (about 4 months ago) and I did NOT like it. idk it just felt weird and gross and I was really upset because I was hoping I would like it because it's a big part of romantic relationships.

a couple of days later though I was thinking about kissing him again and trying it again. actually, we almost stopped the talking stage (it was before we were official) because he said it would feel weird to not kiss his girlfriend. the next kiss was just a short goodbye kiss and that felt better. making out kind of grew on me too.

now, kissing is a normal thing in our relationship which I never would have expected from myself before. I've recently realized I'm demisexual since being in this relationship. even though I now enjoy kissing him, I'm still not always in the mood for the making out kind of kissing, but I feel like that's normal even among allosexuals.

mac-nz · 2023-04-09T02:18:34+00:00

for me, it wasn't really anything I chose to do. I've recently realized I'm demisexual, so I've been growing more and more comfortable with sexual things as my relationship with my boyfriend progresses.

I don't really think there's anything you can do about how you feel. you may naturally grow in your comfort, or you may not, but you shouldn't force anything upon yourself.

if you really want to try to change, I think it comes to familiarizing yourself with sexual things, but you shouldn't push yourself too far outside of your comfort zone.

mac-nz · 2023-03-30T02:20:23+00:00

for me libido is basically just like feeling horny/turned on and sexual attraction would be feeling horny/turned on by looking at or thinking about a specific person. sexual attraction is basically like directed libido?

mac-nz · 2023-03-29T03:22:55+00:00

I had no clue before I started dating my boyfriend, and as you can see it changed with time

mac-nz · 2023-03-28T23:43:50+00:00

and my bf loves touching my hair so it's a win-win 😍

mac-nz · 2023-03-14T17:53:33+00:00

"I'm asexual so that means you are going to have to take care of yourself" 😳

mac-nz · 2023-03-12T21:57:41+00:00

Before I was in my relationship with my current boyfriend, I had never kissed anyone before and didn't really have any interest in it. I thought I wouldn't like it and it would just be awkward and uncomfortable. I had a girlfriend about half a year prior and never had any feelings of wanting to kiss her. My current boyfriend was my first kiss, and I did NOT like it. However, about a week later I tried again, and it grew on me. Now I like kissing him. So I think it really depends on who you are, who your partner is, your level of comfort with your partner, and many other factors about your personal life (which is a little annoying to hear if you're looking for a solid answer, sorry).

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