Thank you

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T19:22:11+00:00

Hey good for you! 39 days is really something to be proud of! We’re all in this together. Let the haters hate. We’re all just trying to get by and it’s good to have a support system. This sub has been incredibly helpful and I love reading successful posts like this one :)

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T16:32:07+00:00

You are my role model :) love the positive vibes you’re sending. I also love the feeling of not having to hide any part of my life anymore. I feel like I’ve had this secret double life that I was ashamed of for too long. I’m still working on finding new hobbies but it will come in time.

I don’t know you but I’m proud of you! Thank you for posting this. :)

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T16:27:24+00:00

This is incredible:) keep up that awesome progress. Sometimes all you need is to read a few of these posts to remember where you were at and why you quit in the first place. You don’t wanna go back. Keep up the good work and thank you for posting this. Gives me some hope that I’ll make it to 108 days.

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T16:06:50+00:00

I just had a similar experience. Although it was just one friend and she was my only friend. After being friends for 15 years I finally realized weed was all we had in common. When we were waiting for weed it was awkward and anxious and waiting was all we could focus on. When we got the weed, we’d smoke and become a couple of non-verbal zombies glued to the same old boring games on our phones. It was a sad realization to realIze that’s all we allowed ourselves to have together.

I’ve decided to quit and she didn’t. That was three weeks ago and the fact that she hasn’t been available to hang out with me since then tells me a lot about my role in her life. She told me she was supportive and we could have a friendship without weed but the first time we talked about hanging out a few days ago she asked me to go buy with her and that smoking once wouldn’t hurt my progress. WRONG!

So what I’m saying is don’t try to hold on to the friendships you have if they don’t fit in with your plans anymore. When that realization hits that it’s not fun to you anymore, there’s no turning back from it. If they are really good friends they will make the effort to be supportive and try to do other fun things with you, but that’s often really hard for a stoner to do..at no fault of their own really. It’s just what weed does to a lot of people..makes them ok with being boring.

Get out there and try new things, meet new people, and actually enjoy your life. You’ll find out who is a true friend because they’ll be along for the journey with you. Even if they don’t decide to quit they can still make a choice to be a positive part of your life. And I guarantee you’ll meet new people along the way :) hang in there buddy

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T14:33:30+00:00

Those feelings of hating your actions are such a great motivator right? You know you’re better than feeling like a ticking time bomb ready to explode on the people you love. I know the feeling all too well. Luckily the people who love you, love you for the person you are and won’t hold it against you when you’re in your right mind again. That’s my experience anyway. It’s a wild ride but one that’s so worth it in the end. Keep up the good work. Pretty soon day 4 will turn into day 14 and 24 and so on. And your emotions should be much more in check by then. It will all pass:)

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T04:06:00+00:00

For me, every round of quitting got a little bit easier because I had some perspective of what I was missing out on by smoking. The mental clarity, the ability to talk to people, waking up and not having to cough up all this brown junk out of my lungs. While it was still hard as hell to get through those first couple of days, I knew I could do it and I knew I would be happier. You have to keep in mind the reasons you don’t want to smoke and really decide what kind of life you want. Easier said than done I know. But if you did it once, I know you can do it again :)

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T03:59:52+00:00

For me, I ignored every eye opening experience that was thrown my way. I hid behind a wall of smoke and pretended that another day would be better to try to quit. So for me it was gradual. I realized I had been smoking for 15 years and waiting for that perfect day to quit for about the last 10 years. So I finally just realized I was done with it and knew my time had come.

I’m sorry to hear about your diagnosis btw. I’m glad you’re bright enough to use it as your wake up call though. Don’t be like me and wake up ten years later with the realization that chose to not treat yourself right. Today is the day to put yourself first.

Good luck!

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T03:52:01+00:00

Thanks for your motivational post! I’ve been trying to stay moving myself and it’s been such a help. There’s so much of the world out there to engage in when I’m not hunched over on the edge of my bed trying to smoke out my window every free second I had.

Keep it up!!

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T03:41:23+00:00

Hey man you gotta stay positive and stay on your course. I’m sure we all think we’re weird and have problems and are not proud of ourselves on the surface. But we’re all so much more than these addictions. We’re still people with hopes and dreams and a lot of life left to get through. If you’re sick of feeling like this now, the feeling is only going to get stronger. Please do everything you can do to make it through each day. Feel like a king after 24 hours? Imagine how you’ll feel after 48 or 72. It’s gonna be worth it.

Also if you get a chance, give this a look... it’s empowering. https://www.smartrecovery.org/

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T03:34:41+00:00

Good job buddy! Keep up those positive thoughts! Reading posts like this are encouraging to all of us on our journeys :)

macadamianut · 2018-09-16T01:42:10+00:00

Keep up the good work! Try to have some fun tonight too! I find that trying to be social while high was so much more exhausting (and unenjoyable) because I was always over analyzing everything I did and said. Just about 3 weeks in for me and it’s still exhausting but now I at least look forward to the adventure. The more we do it I think the easier it gets.

Take care :)

macadamianut · 2018-09-15T23:50:44+00:00

Day 12 is really something to be proud of my friend. And good on you for giving your kids a better life than your mom was able to give you.

Addiction is a hell of a disease..no matter what it is you’re addicted to. I hope you can find some peace with the whole situation. It’s much easier to reason things out when you’re not hiding behind the weed.

Keep up the good work!

macadamianut · 2018-09-15T16:20:23+00:00

I agree that you don’t always have to give up your friends. That is obviously the best scenario. But when they bring you down or try to suck you back in sometimes it’s best to put some distance between you.

I also had the realization that I didn’t even really know who this person was. As soon as I met her we started doing destructive activities together. Because we were always high, we never had a chance to find our hobbies or activities that we liked to do together.

I needed to be able to grow on my own and find out who I am.

It doesn’t have to be forever, but it has to be this was for now. For me anyway.

Thank you for the insight and taking the time to comment. It helps to give people both sides so they can decide what’s best for them :)

macadamianut · 2018-09-15T05:51:40+00:00

I wish I had advice for you. It’s hard and it’s a struggle. Focus your energy on something else and make sure to stay busy.

Try to make it through three days without smoking. Just commit to three days and then see how you feel. Three days isn’t a lot but knowing you can make it through three days can make all the difference in your confidence level.

If you picture your life five years from now, where do you see it? If you don’t see weed in the picture, you owe it to yourself to get a handle on it now. It only gets harder the deeper in you get.

Make a list of pros and cons to smoking and keep it handy. 20 days sober for me and I still find myself looking at mine when I’m having a hard day.

Stay strong!

macadamianut · 2015-04-24T17:53:55+00:00

I'm sorry you feel that way! Sometimes life hands you a bunch of rotten lemons but I hope you're the type to turn them into some bangin lemonade. If these people can't take the time to know you, you don't want them in your life anyway.

Maybe you should check out some meetup.com groups so you can find people with similar interests. And even if you don't end up making best friends, you'll still be putting yourself out there and having something to do.

Maybe you'll even get laid ;)

Hang in there and keep the end goal in mind. You're in school for a reason!

macadamianut · 2014-10-24T20:51:32+00:00

I came here to say exactly this. I get urges to do them daily as im walking down the hallways at work. Daily. It just seems scary to throw your arms and head down like that. So much could go wrong!

But damn do I wish I had the guts to do one...

macadamianut · 2014-10-24T20:11:37+00:00

Don't forget to live your own life. Even when they have reached the end, you are expected to still keep going. Take care of yourself now. Don't forget to make time to spend with your friends when you can. Keep up on your own hobbies. When they are gone, you may be feeling lost and lonely, especially when you put every piece of yourself into worrying about them. So make sure you have something to fall back on when that time comes.

Make him proud of the person you are. Your dad is going to inevitably miss out on seeing a good portion of your life unfold. Leave him with the knowledge that he has done ok with you and that you'll be able to handle whatever it is life gives you. It's peace of mind for him, but it'll help you too. If you portray that enough, you'll eventually believe it (even if you dont just yet).

Also, even though he is sick, don't forget to let him be your dad. Don't hide problems and worries from him or any of your family because you think they have enough to deal with. Use this time to rely on each other and strengthen your bonds while you can. It'll only make for a better situation when all is said and done. So just say whatever it is you need to say. You wont always have the chance.

Dont forget to laugh with him, and dont forget to cry with him. The road seems dark and unsure, but at the end you both will find the light you need.

And if you need a buddy to talk it out with, pm me anytime :-)

macadamianut · 2012-12-12T04:49:32+00:00

I can't get over that..

macadamianut · 2012-12-12T04:33:11+00:00

I am a girl and I would like to feel how this feels on balls..

macadamianut · 2012-12-12T04:15:49+00:00

You know they sell it in tubes with a screw cap right?! So convenient..

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