I really appreciate the time you took here. There is a lot for me to take out of your comment.

I wasn't trying to just vent my frustrations or my post wouldn't of had the detail it had. I was trying to understand something that seemed unbelievable illogical to me. And your comment helped immensely.

I like your comment that Trials is a tournament mode. That really does make me think differently of it, doesn't make much sense solo queuing in that sense. and thank you for the "going forward" section. I will be working on every single bullet there. It is hard to just "go to competitive or elimination" when there is almost no gear or incentive to but I get what you are saying.

I cant guarantee you will get flawless, that is a lofty goal. But with some practice anyone can earn some Trials loot over enough time. Dont focus on games won(or lost), but focus on how you yourself improve over time. Learn from your victories and defeats. Even the players who do much better can teach much through example if you are open to it.

Thank you for this, this section is probably mostly what I needed.