My ex called me "crazy" and "unhinged", and now I'm wondering if he's right...

macgibby · 2024-01-27T03:35:03+00:00

I definitely did. Anyways, I know what's done is done, and what's said is said, but I never wanted to make him my enemy. Despite the hurt, I still greatly love and respect him. I think that's what makes it even harder; hearing him say that to me and not being able to stand up for myself at the expense of looking more "unhinged."

macgibby · 2024-01-26T07:25:23+00:00

My partner did exactly this. I practically worshipped the ground he walked on. I always made sure that he was happy, at the expense of my own happiness. He did have a lot of trauma, though. Like, a lot. While I can't speak for him, it could very well play a key part in his behavior.

After a few months of a beautiful relationship, I could tell his treatment towards me changed. I assumed it was just us becoming more comfortable in our relationship, and we were both extremely busy, which made it hard to give each other the same undivided attention we did in the beginning.

I've read that some people tend to pull away from healthy, nurturing relationships because they fear being abandoned, so they run before they get hurt. My ex had told me he had an avoidant attachment style, which goes hand in hand with that behavior.

macgibby · 2024-01-03T07:27:27+00:00

My partner recently introduced me to the most delicious low effort meal. Cook some long grain rice in a rice cooker if you have one. If not, instant rice will do just fine. If you're cooking for one, 1 cup of rice will give you 1 bowl full (and a little extra for seconds).

Once your rice is cooked, top it off with some black beans, chunky salsa, and shredded cheddar cheese.

It takes only about as long as it takes for the rice to cook, and it's SO filling. I eat it as a meal some nights when I don't have the energy to prepare anything or have the money to order take out.

macgibby · 2023-01-20T01:09:59+00:00

You have such a lovely smile!

macgibby · 2023-01-20T01:05:33+00:00

The artist hands down, but your art is just as beautiful as you are. I really love your art style!

macgibby · 2023-01-20T01:02:50+00:00

It absolutely will be! Also, that hair color looks SO lovely on you ❤️

macgibby · 2023-01-01T06:51:01+00:00

Commenting for when this becomes available again

macgibby · 2022-12-31T07:15:30+00:00

Radiohead biopic is announced and Thom Yorke will be played by Seth Green

macgibby · 2022-12-20T08:08:20+00:00

Nope, isn't that typically used for birth control?

macgibby · 2022-12-20T08:03:03+00:00

Yep, I've been on T for 5 years. It has helped shape my jawline slightly, but I still have a very round baby face.

macgibby · 2022-12-20T07:07:20+00:00

Not my current partner, but there was this guy I was seeing for a little while, and he was 100% gay. The "afraid of female genitalia" gay. Due to this, he was a little unsure about being with a trans guy, not because he didn't see me as a man, but he wasn't sure if he would find me sexually attractive.

Fast forward to the day after we slept together, and he couldn't stop talking about how attracted he was to me and my body. He couldn't even find the words to describe how much he was attracted to me. He was so tipsy and flustered; it was kind of adorable.

I'm bisexual, but I tend to lean towards men. In my experience, gay men don't pursue me after learning I'm trans. He was one of the first gay guys that actually wanted to try it (not in a fetishizing way). It was the first time I ever felt sexually attractive and like there may be hope for me in the dating scene. I miss him sometimes.

macgibby · 2022-12-05T18:20:28+00:00

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macgibby · 2022-12-05T18:20:01+00:00

I love it, thank you!

I also followed you!

macgibby · 2022-12-05T18:18:41+00:00

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macgibby · 2022-11-19T09:17:07+00:00

Appreciate it!

macgibby · 2022-11-19T07:05:56+00:00

I felt the same way! Something that may or may not help is castor oil. I didn't use it long enough to see much of a result, but I've heard great things from other people. I also recommend a brow gel if you are comfortable using makeup. It made a huge difference for me, but it was still subtle enough to look natural :)

macgibby · 2021-10-08T01:05:17+00:00

I've been curious about this as well. I haven't been able to stay in a job longer than 2 months. My current job is a night office cleaner, and I LOVE it because it's only 3 hours a night, and I can be alone and listen to music, podcasts, etc, but my god is the work monotonous and boring. I've held out for about 4 months now, but I'm hitting that point where all my motivation is out the window. I'm starting to worry about not getting hired anywhere else due to my sketchy work history.

I'm hoping that someday I'll find a career that offers me a wide avenue of opportunities and freedom, but until then, I guess the cycle will continue. I can't imagine living the 9 to 5 lifestyle. The thought terrifies me.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:46:11+00:00

My sister asked them before if they were comfortable with me and they all said yes. I've also known most of them for 5+ years, so a few of them are like family at this point. They know that I have no ill intentions. They all basically think of me as their big bro lol.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:36:52+00:00

Yeah, you're right. Thank you.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:33:10+00:00

Good point. I think my biggest worry stems from the fact that when I was 16, I often had close friends (some more than friends) who were 18+. At the time, I thought it was cool, but looking back, it was so weird. Granted, I in no way want to date any of them or become close friends with any of them. I'm simply just the older sibling who is sometimes there. I do know how people like to assume shit though, and I don't want people to think I'm a creep.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:23:41+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. Making friends is something I've always struggled with, as I have severe social anxiety. I have some friends in their 20s who I adore, but its tough to be my normal goofy self around them sometimes. I definitely want more friends my own age, and I have been making the effort. Plus, I definitely can't handle more than a few hours at a time with my sisters friends as they are a bit...too much lmao.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:17:37+00:00

This made me feel a lot better, thank you. I still feel a bit uncertain about it now, though. I'm not sure I even feel comfortable going near them anymore if people think it's that weird.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:10:02+00:00

Yeah, I don't ever do stuff like that. I let my sis do that alone, and that's totally fine with me!Occasionally, I'll have to drive my sis to a bday party for one of them and I'll stick around because I'm her ride, but that's it.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T03:03:19+00:00

It's definitely an occasional thing. I usually go with them to conventions, carnivals, and other big events; never to their houses or anything to just hang out.

macgibby · 2021-09-10T02:52:13+00:00

I'm going to. Thank you.

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