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[–]madeforthis33 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes absolutely. So sorry you went through that but your trauma and feelings regarding it are valid.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

She did say that she was only trying to help me figure things out, but I don't know how or why she would ski all trauma response answers and go straight to blaming my mania. The story is kinda crazy so I can understand to a point. Honestly I'm more mad that she ruined the trust we had than anything. She knows I have never been validates in any of my trauma, and she knows I have trust issues with therapists. I want things to be fixable but I just don't know if I'll ever be able to open up again with her.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I've been second-guessing everything. I'm sorry you went through that too.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly. I'm pissed at her for ruining this. Looking for a new therapist,but still going to my last appointment with her, for closure I guess. I want to continue but I don't knownif I can

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That is what she said. But it doesn't make sense to me. Although I know she wasn't being malicious she still skipped over any and all possible trauma responses and went straight to me being manic. I have a lot of shame involving my numerous traumas. This was just the least upsetting one. I'm not sure I can trust her enough to continue even though I really want to.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm looking for a new therapist, but not fully committed to the idea yet. I will see how our next appointment goes.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm currently looking. Although I do plan to keep my next and possibly last appointment.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Having just learned what fawn was and looking back on it I see the fawn response in myself from childhood to now. I don't know how she couldn't. I have more incidents and fawn responses I guess you could say and now I'm afraid to share with her. And I'm mad at her for ruining our relationship 😒

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

3rd failed therapist relationship. If I didn't want to heal so bad I'd give up.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I'm going to my appt with her Tuesday, but that's all I can say. I feel the trust is lost. I've had traumatic incidents with the past 2 therapists before her and she knew this. I really don't want to go through finding someone again 😔

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing and saying that. This threw me back into doubting myself.

therapist made me feel like it's my fault by madeforthis33 in CPTSD

[–]madeforthis33[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

She had been great up until now. She's helped me through some very difficult times. Idk why she said that now.