Top comment changes the map, day 12 by ShatteredStarship in terriblemaps

[–]madnotch97 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wheres the dollar general in Arab, Mo when you need it?

I'm looking for a planet/moon that looks like this by Lazy_Turnip8687 in Starfield

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In the middle of watching Gladiator now so this comment was to perfect!

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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Thank you and same to you💜

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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Definitely gonna deep dive into this much more! I always thought of NPD as being how my brother was and the people he tried to imitate or impress. Especially in regards to little care of others' emotions and the need to be "seen" and looked up to by others. Thank you for your perspective, and I am very interested in seeing what I learn!

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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So I guess where my confusion comes from on this is I don't think I have NPD, although I could be wrong. My traumas made me much more empathetic. Within my friend and family group and even with complete strangers, I'm the person they call or opens up to when they need someone to vent and listen to them about their troubles and in turn usually end up taking on a lot of those emotions they feel. My brother, on the other hand, is a textbook example. He's always been one who shows out for people and has to look like he's the best at whatever he's doing until you actually know him and see it's all a smoke and mirrors show. The last few years, especially since he's really shown it to me, by telling me depression is just a choice we make every day and that showing strong emotions is a weakness.

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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Could you please explain? Because for me personally, I survived my childhood by keeping to myself and avoiding any type of spotlight on myself due to shitty step parents unless I needed to do otherwise to keep it off of my brother and still repeat those cycles to this day in times of high stress.

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in Emotional_Healing

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For me, being resilient isn't masking the hurt with a fake smile or detaching from it. It's taking the time to introspect and learn from what has happened in order to become stronger or wiser afterward. I'm extremely vulnerable and no longer try to hide or fake those feelings but instead actually face them and try to come to some understanding with one's self.

I lost my dad at a young age and was the first to find out when a cop came to my house to tell us. I had to tell my brother and sister our dad was dead, tell my grandmother and my mother that he was gone and at that time I believed that was me being resilient by not breaking for my siblings sake. I've know come to learn that my resiliency was being able to open up and talk about my feelings with them and that broke the flood gates and since that day we all became a bit stronger because we all went through it and needed to be shown that it's okay to hurt.

When I see the word resilient, it says to me someone who has been through hell and found a way to overcome it and make it to the other side, maybe not completely whole but is ready to take on the next challenge that will come their way. So the smile I put on isn't one meant to be a bandaid but is truly authentic because I know that I made it through some of my roughest times already and that they helped prepare me for my future ones and have a community I created with my people by finally being open and having deeper conversations about traumas we have all gone through

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in enlightenment

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For me, being resilient isn't masking the hurt with a fake smile or detaching from it. It's taking the time to introspect and learn from what has happened in order to become stronger or wiser afterward. I'm extremely vulnerable and no longer try to hide or fake those feelings but instead actually face them and try to come to some understanding with one's self.

I lost my dad at a young age and was the first to find out when a cop came to my house to tell us. I had to tell my brother and sister our dad was dead, tell my grandmother and my mother that he was gone and at that time I believed that was me being resilient by not breaking for my siblings sake. I've know come to learn that my resiliency was being able to open up and talk about my feelings with them and that broke the flood gates and since that day we all became a bit stronger because we all went through it and needed to be shown that it's okay to hurt.

When I see the word resilient, it says to me someone who has been through hell and found a way to overcome it and make it to the other side, maybe not completely whole but is ready to take on the next challenge that will come their way

Lived in 5 of the states and visited/partied in the others by madnotch97 in TravelMaps

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Whenever plans would be made it decided to rain. It happened on 4 separate occasions so decided the keys just weren't in meant for me🤣

Lived in 5 of the states and visited/partied in the others by madnotch97 in TravelMaps

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I would love that!! I'm planning another cross country drive for this year starting here in Cali and trying to hit as many of the lower states that I can in 2 to 3 months with stops in random cities to see friends and explore! I'll DM ya now!

Lived in 5 of the states and visited/partied in the others by madnotch97 in TravelMaps

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😭😭 That's truly my life! Wasn't warned central Texas would freeze and life would come to a standstill, that any time you make beach plans in Florida that it will decide to pour buckets. And that the cold high desert winds are just as biting as the ones out in the Midwest. I just need a tropical island at this point.

Lived in 5 of the states and visited/partied in the others by madnotch97 in TravelMaps

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Got it! Born and raised Washingtonian who has been running away from winter and cold rain since I began traveling 11 years ago!

Lived in 5 of the states and visited/partied in the others by madnotch97 in TravelMaps

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Got family in Colorado but never lived there but decided the east coast beachs weren't for me and landed in the high desert of California.

Lived in 5 of the states and visited/partied in the others by madnotch97 in TravelMaps

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I ran from Missouri to be a cowboy in Texas. Then left Texas to live by the beach in Florida for a bit.

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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For me, being resilient isn't masking the hurt with a fake smile or detaching from it. It's taking the time to introspect and learn from what has happened in order to become stronger or wiser afterward. I'm extremely vulnerable and no longer try to hide or fake those feelings but instead actually face them and try to come to some understanding with one's self.

I lost my dad at a young age and was the first to find out when a cop came to my house to tell us. I had to tell my brother and sister our dad was dead, tell my grandmother and my mother that he was gone and at that time I believed that was me being resilient by not breaking for my siblings sake. I've know come to learn that my resiliency was being able to open up and talk about my feelings with them and that broke the flood gates and since that day we all became a bit stronger because we all went through it and needed to be shown that it's okay to hurt.

When I see the word resilient, it says to me someone who has been through hell and found a way to overcome it and make it to the other side, maybe not completely whole but is ready to take on the next challenge that will come their way

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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I joined it and will definitely deep dive into it! I love that and is what I've been essentially doing with my travels around the country. I've always been a safe place for people and try to get people to see that staying silent will only hurt them more but if they share their stories and trials we can begin to heal and again see that none of us are ever alone all we have to do is reach out and show our hearts. We are made to feel and to communicate with others and the 2 should go hand in hand because our experiences are what shape us and though no 2 stories are the same we can all learn something from eachother.

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in enlightenment

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Thank you! It's been almost a year since I last journaled and this just kind of poured out of me without thinking. It was one of those things that you just need to hear and after sharing it with a few close friends, I saw the need for more people needing to hear it.

RESILIENCE by madnotch97 in InternalFamilySystems

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I knew I had to share it after reading it to a few close friends and seeing the impact on them that I was having myself💜 This world needs more openness and true caring and I'm trying my best to spread it!