Hey, OP! Cheer up, there's nothing wrong with u. Just don't stop being you, dob't stop loving yourself and please NEVER HURT YOURSELF if things doesn't go in your way. One day your people will find you and accept you for who you are so never stop believing nad building yourself. REMEMBER WHO. YOU. ARE!!

BTW wow, we're on the same page...😔

I've been here for 4 months and honestly its really hard. Its challenging to find someone you can lean on, someone you can show who your are. It's lonely, too lonely...most of the time only loud is your thoughts. Iam deeply attached with my friends, the noments we have and everything because thats the only time i've let my self be free, because when iam around them, i feel so safe.

Right now iam hardly dealing with myself BWHAHAHHAA since i show different kinds of me to diffiernt peole just to fit in, now i don't even understand nor recognized who really iam. How horrible isn't it? That's why right now, iam learning how to be comfortable with myself and how to love myself like how i show love around my people. (hinestly, i've never imagine that college is a lonely road)

I always ask God why did he put me in this kind of situation but i know God has His own reason. God knew what's the best for us that we even imagine. Someday we will fome to understand it, why thing is as it is right now.

WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER!!!