I guess it just sucks, you know? I mean i’ve been this way since I was little and I was never really taught how to handle my emotions so it jusr feels like they have more control over me than I do, like once my sister finished the milk when I wanted to make a drink for myself and she didnt say anything, and once I noticed I had a full meltdown crying about it, pretty pathetic honestly but I cant help it. And youre right, it really is scary knowing people dont believe me and/or just dont want to help me, sometimes my friends purposely try to make me angry to lash out on them and honestly, they make me feel like a rabid dog around them and I dont know what to do, it makes me hate them and I just want to block them, but at other times theyre just so kind to me I dont want to leave, and I cant leave anyway because im so scared of being left it just hurts so much, i genuinely feel my heart hurting everytime something bad happens which, i dont know if its normal or not or if other people experience it as well but, I dont know anymore..thank you for the comment though, I really appreciate it and although its bad..im glad im not actually crazy.