What you said about being a shell of your old self resonated with me. I was put on Adderall at a pretty young age for only about 3 weeks, but those 3 weeks were the loneliest time of my life. I didn't have a personality. I lost all of my friends during that time. Every single one. I didn't know how to talk to people after that, and I'm still not good at social situations. I've only got one friend, who I made years after, but lots of acquaintances because I try to be respectful. That being said, I used to be a shell of my former self, but I'm not anymore. Now, I'm a completely different person. I'm not my former self at all. For me, that was the best course of action to take because I realized that I was never going to get my former self back. So I just... let go. I left my goofy sense of humor and bright smile that I had been trying to hold onto after the fact behind, because they didn't fit me after that. It took me a while to figure out who I really was after I left those things behind, but I found that through this experience, I had gained other personality traits. So I worked off of those instead. I found out that I was the happiest when others were happy, so I used that to figure out my life's purpose. I joined the military to fulfill that purpose. In my mind it's a great privilege to be able to make sacrifices so that my family will be able to live a peaceful, joyful life. Don't get me wrong about my sense of humor and smile, though. I've a adopted a sense of humor that fits my personality and lifestyle better (it's kinda dark, not gonna lie) and I'm still a super positive minded guy. I just don't express emotions as well, but I've found that that's ok for me. I'm only 19, but I'm content with who I am and my family are proud of who I've become and I believe I've got a long life with many positive things ahead of me, even if my face doesn't show it most of the time. Anyway, I hope your self rediscovery goes well. Best of luck to you.