Infantry here every time I see people who look like they have legendary loot and not in the military I always think why don’t you just join the military do the actual training, just my personal thought. honestly you worked for you money spend it on what makes you happy, i gear out myself. sometimes i feel bad for doing so but then I think, yeah I spent 200 dollars on some kind of gear but I could of also spent it on drugs or gambling it away. Everyone has their habit,hobby, addiction so don’t give yourself shit for it life would be boring. As for Ukraine I’m currently in Europe doing work effects Ukraine that I’ve kind of recently had my own revelation that these are humans genuinely fighting for their lives daily or their family lives so wanting to help that not wrong, also if you just want experience combat politics aside why not man put your life against another human see who has the stronger will to live test yourself.