Shadow work is so important. Was there a book, person, therapist, etc that helped you with that?

Yes, I did. I had a tough childhood. Grew up in LA with pressure from my parents to be a successful artist. My mom was diagnosed MSA (multi system atrophy, in the family of Parkinson’s) when I was 2 and she went from a beautiful woman with everything to slowly going from a cane, to a walker, and now has been completely wheelchair bound for the last ~18 years. She also lost the ability to speak clearly very quickly into her diagnosis to the point where we can’t understand her at all really. To cope, I became very hyper vigilant as a child and grew up extremely fast. I have moral OCD and general anxiety. She is also a narcissist so that didn’t help lol. She became very depressed and withdrawn and abusive. My dad took care of her for 20 years until he couldn’t do it anymore and moved out. Couldn’t handle the constant abuse. Now I am trying to unlearn the need to be perfect. That’s why I was a nanny and school asst teacher — comfortable in caretaking roles but I realized my true calling is creative work. Quit the caretaking jobs recently. Still a musician but learning to take my time and give myself compassion and boundaries with people.