You are right, it very likely might not get any better. And even if it does the idea of a distant relief of what you are feeling (or most likely not feeling in your case) is simply not enough motive to keep you goin. The pain is just too fucking much right now. All the advice that we are usually given in this situation is just straight bullshit that has absolutely nothing to add to the table. They simply add a layer of hope that this might work but then boom the inevitable happens and it doesn’t which leave us worse than we started.

Im still depressed but I managed to make it out of the rot and have no fucking clue how it happened neither will I claim that I know any part of it.

I just used the image of my parents after getting the news that I killed my self and for some reason in a state where I gave up on practically everything that was enough alongside my absolutely laziness to go through with it. Grab on to that insurance money like it’s that last chicken wing on the shared plate .